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Female , 18-21
Feeling lonely
IN USA
Just thinking...

I'm mostly kind, caring, respectful (unless encouraged otherwise) I love to talk, I get very deep and emotional. I have very strong opinions which makes me often sound like a total hypocrite =D but I try to be funny, or just fun in general =P

And way too honest... Its almost a bad habit, =D

Last Seen Oct 1
Member Since Sep 28, 2010
Favorite Quote A blind man once said,
Heritage
  • a little American
Vices Whistling
Politics
Horoscope Cancer
Special day 7-19
Books Writing-A-Novel books, Self Help books, Fiction, Romantic fiction, teen fiction, beauty books,
Music Paramore {Band}- helped me through tough times with the song
Movies romantic comedies, comedies, action, chick-flicks
Local Time October 20th, 8:42 PM

I Feel Trapped

Trapped... Trapped… What does word mean? I'm trapped within my body, unable to get out. I'm trapped with the unmerciful mind of negativity that limits my thoughts down to the ashes on the... [more]
HeartSelfMade7668 has shared 1 Mature Experience
  • I Am Not Scared of Death

    Difference Between Being Not Being Afraid And Accepting..? I hear alot of my friends and family say they're "not afraid to die". Well my majority of my family say it because "I'll be closer to God". Others such my brother and several of my friends, say it bec… [more]
  • I Am So Alone

    Not Talking- Poem I'm not talking to you because you love meI'm not doubting that you careI'm just feeling alone and regretfulAnd talking won't get us anywhereI not sitting silentBecause I… [more]
  • I Love to Dance

    Passion In The Music- The Song I do Hawiian dance, been dancing since I was about 4. I'm not in a area were most people might think of Hula as an option (I have to explain its not with hula-hoops). My grandma started doing it "for … [more]
  • I Like a Good Quote

    A Blind Man Once Said.... A blind man once said, "If seeing is believing, then you're just a figment of my imagination." (Another separate quote below) "The beauty of the sky shines down on life a… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    I don't know if I love him
    I'm dating this great guy, and i just lost my virginity with him... I don't regret it, but there's a part of me that doesn't feel what it's supposed top feel. I'm not happy, or sad that I did it. I'm not numb or anything. I don't feel a sense of attachment to him... because I sort of want to end things... I don't know if I really want to, I'm positive that I'm not fully thinking straight. but somewhere... I don't know if we're meant to be. But I don't want to be the second chance (for him) and break his heart.… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    I Believe in Spirits!
    THERE I SAID IT! Almost everyone I know thinks this is crazy! Alex isnt a demon trying to make me follow the devil or whatever people might believe! She actually drags me (cause i get stubborn) to God! she tells me God doesnt think i'm worthless and I'm worth a hell of a lot! When I pick up the pair of sissiors on my desk she forces me to stare at them and tells me not to cut myself, and that cutting isnt what i want to do, she reminds me every damn day about how much my life has given me and begs me not to throw it all away, she says things will get better, i just need to let it. Dad I'm sorry if you don't think this is real, but it's real to me. It helps me write those emails to you, help… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    still sometimes wish to die
    I sometimes still wish i could die, but no one knows... and i'm scared if i tell anyone i'll go to a mental hospital (which in the past did NOTHING GOOD) if … [more]
  • Do I believe in God? I kinda have to.

    Posted on: December 1st, 2013 at 5:32PM

    I don't know. I don't know if I should believe in God because of all the miracles I have been given. I feel like in a way I'm obligated to. I do acknowledge theres a form of higher power and I'm alive possibly because of it. I also know in my heart that I survived for a reason, I do believe every life has a purpose, because if they didn't, what's the use of existing? But then, I question it. Maybe that's my nature, or maybe I've blocked him out with senses I accept but choose not to allow them to control me. Maybe he's there, I just can't feeling him as strongly as I would like to. That because I've survived, shouldn't I have that deeper connection with God? And that lack of connection......… [more]

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  • Why...

    Posted on: November 14th, 2010 at 8:57PM

    So me and my brother got in a HUGE fight last night, mostly because he literally picks up on words and NOT on the full sentence. But besides that I had an break-down within the middle-to-end of it. And I said some stuff I truly regret. I was thinking all night long about my apolagy.. thinking of ways to tell him I'm sorry. I back-flashed over my words, I was holding a picture if my Grandmother that passed away in 2008, yelling at him telling him- more like reminding harshly- about how he said how much he hated her, and i told him how much he said she hated him, and since she was so stubborn to love him she let it go, like it never happened... and I screamed "how would she feel if she knew w… [more]

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  • Can I save myself from making the same mistakes?

    Posted on: February 16th, 2011 at 7:46PM

    Okay so I'd probably should mention the mistake and the short-version details behind it. I cheated. I didn't really realize I was cheating sense it was long distance. The other thing was it was all online. I kind of three-cheated by dating 2 diffent guys, and had "friendly" incounters with other guys. I, of course, realized it all too late and did it again to another guy, who this guy was only a city away. I caught myself shortly in the middle of it and broke it off (though the dating was kind of a friends thing that we called dating,). Then met another guy (my most rescent ex) and stopped the cheating thing. but things didnt work out because of "honesty" though that time I was being honest,… [more]

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  • He's Back

    Posted on: October 7th, 2012 at 9:53AM

    He came back, I don't know if I want him here, after a whole month of not texting me, after a whole month of not knowing where he is, he texts me. He knows everything is not okay, he knows things are changing. It hurts, and I know it. There is a part of me saying I know how it feels. I know how it hurts to struggle and for the one person you hope to be there for you and them not. I know what it's like to beg for forgiveness, to say I'd change. But I don't know what it's like to tell someone no. I don't know how to tell a crying person it isn't going to work. I don't know how to break a heart with one made of stone. I can't just play the violin and be done with it. I have a big heart, and it … [more]

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