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Female , 18-21
Feeling satisfied
life is getting better I guess ...

get depressed pretty easily.
hate dad.
want to be loved by everyone.
want more love.
a really fun girl. actually.
down for a good time.
love to dance.
pretty smart.
love getting As.
know how to party hard.

Last Seen Nov 18
Member Since May 28, 2010
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  • a little Chinese
  • and a little Thai
  • and a little Korean
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Books DBT and CBT
Music rave, dance music, classical, rock, pop, anything but country and metal
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Local Time December 21st, 2:15 AM

I Went to a Rave

Love The Whole Rave Scene Before my first rave, I didn't even know what a rave was. Friends would explain to me "it's where people take E and give each other massages" "where people do drugs and dance like crazy" "where... [more]
HellloKittty has shared 5 Mature Experiences
  • I Am Addicted to Adderall

    I'm Not Addicted. I Live On This Stuff. It started since I got into college. I transferred from a community college in a different city. My new university is one of the best in the US. Very competitive and first year I found myself being an… [more]
  • I Don't Look Act Sound Or Feel My Age At All

    21 But Look 12 I'm 21 I look around 14-16 The lowest number I got was 12...crazy I act like I'm 18 I sound 16-17 I feel 15.... the last is the worst because I wish I… [more]
  • I Am Thai

    "i'm Thai" "really?!?! You Look Chinese!!" Yes I look Chinese, Japanese, Korean or whatever, but I'm Thai. I was born in Thailand, and lived there for 15 years. My first language is Thai, and I understand why most Americans don't get we… [more]
  • I Am Interested In Polygamy

    Don't Do It Y r u interested in polygamy? Okay fine...u can be interested in it but NO DON'T DO IT. PLEASE. my dad had 5 wives and 8-9 kids and I hate it. my childhood was filled with bad memori… [more]
  • DAD

    Posted on: June 29th, 2010 at 4:56AM

    umm I just don't understand... How can anyone stand my dad? He's not the nicest guy. He might be rich but that's about it. So all these wives and kids r all over him. I wonder if they really love him or his money. I can't fuking stand him. I wish I wasn't his kid. He doesn't know how to be a (good) dad. He doesn't know anything but how to *** and ***. I wish someone cut his **** off. I wish he could feel the pain I have been feeling all my life. I wish he gave me all his money and just die. I know that's never gonna happen. I'm the worst kid in his eyes. He thinks I'm extremely problematic and rebellious and he HATES it. He wants everyone to obey him. He loves rules. He loves money more tha… [more]

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  • LOVE

    Posted on: July 13th, 2010 at 5:43AM

    July/13/2010 (TUES) 3.18 am called dad at 1 am. talked for half an hour. hanged up and cried called hunni at 1.30 am. talked for an hour. hanged up and smiled dad talked about same old **** again. how many times do i have to hear this? i know i suck at sucking up but seriously? i totally forgot to "apologize" to him hunni...he was sleeping...he has work tomorrow u know...i knew he was sleeping yet i still called him... im so inconsiderate and spoiled but i needed him badly he woke up and talked to me tho. he listened and gave me very very good advice. hes honest. he told me what i did wrong. he recognized my fault and pointed it out, but so gently...he is the complete opposite of my dad v… [more]

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  • just another small issue

    Posted on: July 27th, 2010 at 5:48AM

    July/27/10 (TUES) 3.15 am I havent written a blog for a while. I guess I ve been feeling alright and I think I got depressed coz of the ecstasy I took at a rave last month. My dad and I talk again and he finally agrees to pay for some of my expenses. Normally, I'd go crazy coz he is once again taking advantage of my mom, but I've been calm enough to not ask for more + my bf keeps me sane and normal and I think I should try to change the way I think. I know I'm pretty fuked up and I still think like a kid. Very immature. To help my mom out, i gotta shut up and do whatever I can to be okay with my dad....for now... So i've been taking 5-htp. dunno if its placebo effect or what but it does he… [more]

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  • Focus on the Positive things

    Posted on: June 3rd, 2010 at 5:49AM

    I know I've been quite depressed. Busy with finals, graduation, friends, internship etc. I've been pretty pessimistic also. I always thought no one cared about me. Today, those thoughts still slip in and out of my mind. I can't really help it. But something made me smile today. Those things made me realize my life isn't too bad after all. Here are some of them... 1. my bf when I first got with my bf, I didn't really think we would last. i found him to be quite immature, a little selfish and was not really a bf material. but recently, he has proved me wrong. maybe it's because I've been depressed, but he's been giving more love, care, and attention than usual + he's been really supportive o… [more]

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