Male , 26-30
Feeling depressed
I'm hideous.

Fugly fatso with psoriasis, atopic dermatitis and severe acne, but no real-life friends or support. Seriously in need of euthanasia.

Last Seen Nov 18, 2013
Member Since Sep 07, 2011
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  • 100% Finnish
Vices diet cola
Politics Liberal
Horoscope Cancer
Special day
Books anything by Stephen King
Music Sentenced, Apulanta, Linkin Park
Movies The Nightmare Before Christmas, Corpse Bride, Edward Scissorhands, Howl's Moving Castle, Spirited Away, NausicaƤ Of The Valley Of The Wind, Alice In Wonderland, ...
Local Time July 31st, 7:01 AM

I Have Psoriatic Arthritis

Life'S Getting Worse Every Year I got diagnosed with Psoriatic Arthritis this spring, after a lot of blood tests and examination. It affects the joints of my fingers, making many things extremely painful to do - not coincidentally... [more]
Hidenow has shared 30 Mature Experiences
  • I Wish I Was a Woman

    Because I Hate My Male Body I hate being very hairy, having wide shoulders and deep voice, and I am really disgusted by my male organ. I envy my sisters' lovely singing voices, and they love music and singing, so I've heard thei… [more]
  • I Think I Am Ugly

    Why I Think I'm Ugly I have inherited psoriasis and acute skin disorder from my mother's side and strong dark body hair from my father's side. I also have to wear thick glasses, because my eyes are misaligned and need pri… [more]
  • I Don't Like Being Touched By Strangers

    Touching Feels Too Intimate I need to mentally prepare myself before someone touches me, as electricity runs through me if certain parts of me are touched. Because of that, I usually only shake hands with people, not hug them or… [more]
  • I Am a Hairy Guy

    Not By Choice My father's hairy, his father was hairy, and probably his father was also hairy, though I cannot know for sure as I was born years after he had passed away. I was bullied because of my hairiness in sc… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    I can only blame myself
    I'm fat and ugly only because I don't do anything to fix them. And I can't blame my parents for having a baby boy instead of a girl, it's mostly down to luck. I feel the urge to commit suicide now and then, but every time I remind myself that I couldn't do that to my mother, who'll probably live at least 30 years or even more thanks to her healthy habits. The only things I enjoy anymore are tasty food, cartoons and Conan O'Brian, I lose interest in everything else after a while.… [more]
  • A little about me

    Posted on: October 16th, 2011 at 4:02PM

    Biological sex: maleBorn in: June 1986Hair Colour: dark brown (natural)Eye Colour: mutated (blue and green mixture)Actual Height: 5'10" (175 cm)BMI 25 Height: 7'9" (232,5 cm)Favourite Colours: red, green, brown, grey, dark colours in generalFavourite Pastimes: surfing the Internet, playing video games with my brother on weekends… [more]


  • My story

    Posted on: January 23rd, 2012 at 4:14PM

    I've always been different from other boys. I never liked their rough outdoor games and easily burst into tears, and enjoyed puzzles and books and staying inside no matter what the weather was, though my mother kicked me outside every day. I was bullied in school nearly every, sometimes by boys and sometimes by girls. My teacher didn't like my crying and eventually he ignored my pleas and made sure I went to the school yard instead of hiding inside. I had no friends at school, and I even asked mother to transfer me to another school, but she didn't listen to me. We did move around the city though, about every second year, so I didn't make any long-lasting friendships, but I still had to take… [more]