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That whore "Insomnia" wont leave my house....

Thats so hard to do. I try to be a little bit better of a person than I was the day before, especially if I was a ****head to someone the day before. We all have bad days, you just try to have more good then bad

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Member Since Jan 13, 2010
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Special day 11-13
Books I Love obscure... Hunter S Thompson, Edgar Allen Poe, Stephen King T.S. Elliot, I have a very large pallet for all things artistic
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Movies I am a movie Freak! I have 100's of them and some I watch over and over again while others I wait years in between. I have adored directors, producers, and actors of course, I have a very large pall
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I Have Ocd

Ocd And Away We Go! There was a question today " How does having Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder alienate people?" I couldn't help but answer being one who is savaged by OCD. At work it works... [more]
HiPpPiEcHiKcKiE has shared 12 Mature Experiences
  • I Feel Lonely a Lot

    It Is Better To Be Alone Than In Bad Company I turned 36 last November and its funny how 10 years can change a lifetime of perception and views.10 Years ago I was in college in Fayetteville Arkansas. I had this huge network of some of … [more]
  • I Smoke Weed

    Peaceful In Nature I started smoking when I was 15, I am now 36. At that age it was more about the sillyness and the giggling for hours, now it is a way to calm down and give true thought to serious issues or a w… [more]
  • I Read And Write Backwards Mirror Dyslexia

    Dysialex? It shows up most in my typing, so for this post only, I am not oging to correct my typing, I will elave it as dyslexic as it really is. I can remember in kindergarten watching the letter's… [more]
  • I Have Dyslexia

    Dysialex? It shows up most in my typing, so for this post only, I am not oging to correct my typing, I will elave it as dyslexic as it really is. I can remember in kindergarten watching the letter's… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    I dont miss you anymore!
    I dont miss you anymore, its been 5 years and I dont understand why you wont get that. I have blocked your numbers, home, work, cell, and random cell phones from what use to be friends of both of ours. I am not an addict anymore, I left that behind when I left you behind. I dont want you to show up at my home anymore, you just cause a scene when you do. You threw a vase through my glass door and then sobbed for my forgiveness. I am sorry you are hurting still 5 years later, but maybe it is the Meth that leaves you so empty and in need and not me. Why can't you let me be? I cant help you, not anymore. I tried! I told you when I was leaving that all I wanted to be was clean and normal, you cal… [more]
  • Watch For Signs

    Posted on: April 8th, 2011 at 1:53PM

    Feeling more myself Lately….So I am still out of work but I started walking…exercising…regularly…no don’t go getting all excited its only been 2 weeks but I am a little proud of me. I am the first one to tell you to watch for signs in life because I see them all around me…good and bad…kind of depends on what I am up to at the time…good…...or…bad…. I decide to go to the park because I have forgotten how important being outside is to my mental and emotional self sometimes. I have been spending a little more time outside lately as I ponder with my weight issue. (Short note…I got hurt and was in a wheel chair for about 6 months, that was 2 years and 100 pounds lighter) I know I have to start exe… [more]

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  • God vs. the Devil---winner gets my soul!

    Posted on: July 18th, 2010 at 6:04PM

    One summer, I was running away from my abusive boyfriend from New Mexico to Arkansas, where my parents were.   I had packed my things away at a friends house a few items at a time for about 3 weeks. I had my boss hiding my tip money for me at work. One night I went to work and new I was leaving right after my shift. I was going to get away. I remember him calling me about half way through my shift and asking me " you are coming home aren't you?" I remember the fear, He knows, I almost didn't go. I told my boss and he gave me $320 they had gathered up over the last week from employees and regulars and told me to leave now, so I did, in the middle of the night in the car that I paid for that h… [more]

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  • Watch for Signs part 2....2 months later

    Posted on: June 3rd, 2011 at 5:31PM

    ***2 Months later and I start school on Monday.......I couldn't be more excited..I am also still walking regularly which leads me to believe that getting outside and breathing outside air regularly has had a positive affect on my life....It's funny because I have always believed that most people need to be taught how to correctly breathe...all the shallow breaths don't carry enough oxygen around your body to really get your brain to kick into the good high gears....but then, I forgot to apply that to my own self for a while....I have since remembered and things are taking a turn for the better....so next time things start to go south...I think I will take a minute to take a few good deep bre… [more]

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  • You just cant argue with a turtle

    Posted on: April 15th, 2010 at 11:26PM

    This is one of my favorite poems that I have ever written. I remember this, a vivid trip I once had in the mountains of Ruidoso New Mexico with a group of friends while we hunted for shrooms. I know the rhythm of it is off in places and I could of used better wording, but then it wouldn't have fit . I gues it is really more of a rhythmic story than it is a poem, I think, but It always makes me smile when I read it. I had heard someone say part of the first line " ABC and LSD".....and I took it from there, well my imagination did, and I kept watching for this ginormous Gummie Bear to come roaring out of the woods after me, but it didnt happen and after a while I convinced myself that if… [more]

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