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I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

I Feel Good. I have posted earlier how miserable and worthless my life is... today i want to share how happy finally i've become. :)I have learned to control my bpd, and this is my hugest achievement in my... [more]
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  • I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

    Trying To Help Myself.. I'm a borderline mother, doughter, ex-wife, girlfriend, sister and friend. Within 11 years i have been diagnosed with dapression, major dapression, mixed ED and several mood, behaviour and menth… [more]
  • I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

    I Hate Myself And I Hate My Life i don't want my life any longer.i don't want to be what i am any longer.i don't want to not to know what i am any longer.i don't want to be ill any longer.i don't want to be cr… [more]
  • I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

    Back On Meds The last some mounths i have been totally out of controle... but i just want my peace. I visited a doc today, told him about my borderline staff that i was diagnosed while i was living in other countr… [more]
  • I Wish I Knew Then What I Know Now

    Would Everything Be Better.. Or Just Different..? Actually there are a lot of things about what I wish I knew then.. One of them is the reason why I'm now nothing nowhere having nothing..  Ok, where it starts about.. I was young, lonely mo… [more]
  • will anything ever get better?

    Posted on: November 18th, 2010 at 6:24AM

    After one week of insomnia (after quitting medication) i thought i'll end up in hospital or grave... so i'm back on meds... i don't want it, but it looks like i can't stay "normal" without them.. at least not cutting off like i did. I just want everything to be ok, if not good - about that i'm not even dreaming anymore.. i don't want to live with meds. i want to be able to feel and act without them.. I'm insane. And nothing will ever change it. But the worst part is I realize it. Blessed are those insane who don't realize it, they don't have to live with this thought every day and evey moment of theyr crazy life.My mood: extremely upset… [more]


  • [ .. desperate for death .. ]

    Posted on: March 20th, 2011 at 5:19AM

    haven't been here for a wile.... what has changed while i was gone? nothing... nothin' at all... at least not for good, that's for sure. i'm as ****** up as a most ****** up person can be. i want to die and i can't make it come true cuz i feel guilty in front of my mom and children. what the hell should i do? what should do person whos biggest desire is to blow out his own brain but he has to accept that it's not alowed, not possible? and he has to accept it every day, every minute, every moment of his life, cuz that's how often he wants to ******' die..! and yesterday we buried my godmother... my sweetest and loveliest person on earth, my inspiration and muse... how the hell should i get ov… [more]