ibstraange 18-21, F

I really think there are a lot of people who don't want to see my questions posted. I kind of use this website for self help, but I also share my experience as well!! I really want to help people, but I need some advice myself.. Well, sorry if I am being annoying.… [more]

Comment if you like, positive or negative its all from the same type living being....People make fun of me, hit me, bite me, and choke me...Seeing other people hurting because of myself.(I am way to good at socializing, I adapt to the emotions in my environment because I don't have any of my own)...I think about hog-tying my boyfriend and biting his neck until he bleeds....people are mad at me... I can feel vibes/energy and take them for myself well I WILL SHARE mostly...... All of this is not happiness it is pure adrenaline. Nothing else makes me feel better, so my mind is in a very unrealistic place most of my days.… [more]

It makes me feel better to make other people feel worthless, probably because that's how I feel. I hurt people physically and emotionally, and I'm manipulative... it makes me feel better. it takes away all the pain I have because I'm putting it on someone else. I have dreams about killing people, probably because I have wanted to kill myself before. I never thought I would admit to such a thing, but getting this off my chest is just a start.....… [more]

When I talk sometimes I say, what's fair to say? I'm almost to honest for some people, possibly way I don't feel the want to see people. My intentions are good, but sometimes I also come off as manipulative... :( I guess i wish I could say this to everyone in my life but it's hard to say the.. I don't usually enjoy most people… [more]