IHateBeingMale 22-25, M

I managed to keep myself behind the compuer to use it all night here at this mental hospital. Dunno if I could manage that again. Probably not, but that doesn't matter now.Why did I do this? Long story. Let's jsut say, suicidal thoughts and broken promises from multiple people played a role.Of course, if M2 finds out I did this tommow, I am completely and thouroughly screwed. Like, off the scale screwed.… [more]

It's so fun to get suicidal from every little tiny inconvenience that happens.It's so fun to want to kill myself because the school bus isn't where it usually is.It's so much fun to feel a thousand flaming emotional knives through your heart because someone accidentally left your room door locked.It's...Fúck. As I'm writing this. It happens again. Once again, I want to die. Once again, it's for absolutely no reason whatsoever.I hate my life.… [more]

Something is fúcking wrong in my life.When I'm 12 I start getting suicidalWhen I'm 13 I get horribly abused by othersWhen I'm 14 my otherwise normal parents give me a 4 hour lecture on how much they hate me just because of my opinionWhen I'm 15 I'm declared insane and sent to a mental hospital, where I still liveWhen I'm 16 someone steals thousands of euros of things that were very important to me and almost every personal thing I ever hadAnd now I'm 17 I learned I won't get a school diploma and therefore can't get a job. I'll have to live off the goverment, and let's face it, because of the economic crisis, it won't be for long until they drop everyone like me and I'll have nothing. No home… [more]

Great news. Recently, it's officially no longer my interest to become a computer programmer.Now I want to be dead in the future.… [more]