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I Have a Sexless Relationship, Not Be Choice

This is really it...PART 3 ;) After these encounters, I find myself with mixed emotions. There is an emotional and, sometimes, sexual charge there. Then, I feel guilty for having had the... [more]
ImnessAntiess has shared 6 Mature Experiences
  • I Am Mixed Race

    Is There Still A Definition For This? For some reason, to many people this is still a controversial question and I have heard of many different opinions on it. Me? When people ask me if I am mixed race, I just say what I am and let each p… [more]
  • I Am Socially Awkward

    People Always Call Me 'a People Person' Funny. They have no idea how many thoughts are going through my head, some pertaining to the moment, others not...or how anxious I am feeling, at that very moment, about a number of things that probab… [more]
  • I Find Serial Killers Fascinating

    Sexy Serial Killers I am not obsessed with serial killers and do not find them fascinating, either. My thought of it is: that all are, in some way, mentally ill- by way of being abused or some other defect of life- and r… [more]
  • I Am In a Sexless Relationship

    I Need Some Outside Persepective! I would like to know where someone other than me would sit on this. Here is the whole complete story- as condensed as I can make it- as to how I've become a beautiful gril, in her early twenties, in a… [more]
  • Entry 2- Just got out of a's the middle of the night

    Posted on: June 24th, 2011 at 3:07AM

    I've always been a night-owl. I go through the cycle of having these ridiculous hours, even when I was a teenager and had to wake up for school. Still, I will get my habits back to 'normal' and then do this. It all starts over; the struggle to not wake up past morning and, hopefully, manage to fall asleep before 3 AM. Right now, there is so much I am thinking about and trying to accomplish that sleep doesn't feel much like a priority.Just now, I took a bath...attempting to resist the urge. But, I just needed to soak and relax, putting what I need to do into some perspective. For me, a bath or shower brings much clarity- even if incomplete.My mood: very awake… [more]


  • Entry 5- Middle-ground

    Posted on: July 10th, 2011 at 5:25PM

    The other day I spent an hour writing a blog entry, then, somehow accidentally refreshed the screen and erased it! God, I was livid. It was 2 AM and I couldn't even consider trying to write another. So, I waited until now. A few days ago I was loathing. It's everything. How my relationship is going is still mediocre, but there's really nothing new to report on that. I think for both of us, how we are doing personally should take presidence, right now- because that is our issue.I am trying very hard to be progressive and positive, which is especially hard when every inclination I have is to be depressed. Fighting it off has been impossible (nearly, but really if I believed in impossible'). Th… [more]


  • Entry 7- life's different, but the same

    Posted on: August 20th, 2011 at 10:00PM

    My birthday was between a disaster and decent. my expectations were not much, because I knew that nothing spectacular was planned. What I didn't count on is getting in an argument with my dad the day before. If you can believe it, he was so angry over the petty disagreement that he didn't see or even call Me on my birthday, as my mother and the rest of my family did. Actually, he hasn't seen or called me since then- totally overreacted to the fact that we didn't agree on a rather insignificant subject. Really, what brought me to writing is my current state. The direction of my life has changed from a month ago. I am pursuing a business acquisition that looks very promising. I have to admit… [more]


  • Why is life so surreal for me? About Me

    Posted on: June 24th, 2011 at 1:20AM

    I've considered starting a blog here for some time. I am an avid journal writer, but I felt like blogging would do something more for me. I intend for this blog to be about a few single subjects of my life and my experiences. My entire existence can be divided very simply: my relationship, E-career, dealing with my parents and how difficult it is being me- for what feels like every moment of my life. That sounds dramatic, I know....but, it's real. That is my life, in a nutshell. I will be 'talking' much about relationship issues, race, and my feelings on issues in general. So, here's to starting and, hopefully, relating to others, who will relate to me.My mood: very blah… [more]