Female , 18-21
faces pass me on the street just blend together . they mean nothing just as I mean nothing ..

I am just as any other human being.. There is a lot of things in my life that isnt so pleasant, my life is full of heartache.. I am begining to give up on life itself, I am tried of fighting to be someone in this world. I dont want anything out of life anymore, I want nothing because at this point nothing will make me happy.. I have experienced a lot of pain in my life, and after the last hit in the face I am done with it.. I know life is hard but I always thought that at some point life would get a little easier but for me it hasnt.. I never had it easy, from point of birth to the point I will die I dont think that I will ever come to the point I will have an easy life.. My world is crumbling around me and I dont have the strength to rebuild it...

Last Seen Apr 24
Member Since Apr 04, 2012
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I Don't Know Why I Keep Doing This To Myself

I continue to pump poison into my veins... My body is rotting away slowly from the inside out and I'm doing it to myself, but I can't stop chasing that beautiful high .. I have been on a... [more]
imperfectbeauty has shared 20 Mature Experiences
  • I Am the Black Sheep of the Family

    The Accidental Pregnancy.. Yup, I was a huge accident and my parents made sure that I knew. When I was 12 my mother actually told me the truth about everything, I was way too young to have to hear what she said i wish that she … [more]
  • I Am Pregnant

    I Have To Face The Reality Of My Situation So its offical, I am pregnant. I took 4 test all positive. I dont want to believe it, but I guess I have to face reality.. This on top of everything is really getting to me. I just hope that the withd… [more]
  • I Love Black Men

    Hovering Over Me. I just recently became very attracted to black men.. I guess since I moved to cali, I see the difference because back home where I am from all men dressed the same and act the same, black or white. I … [more]
  • I Am Bi

    Kate I have known that I was Bi for a while now, I really do believe that I was born this way and there is nothing worng with it. I have accepted it . I can remeber how I felt so werid to be around the gir… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    Denying the truth
    I am very quick to tell the truth, but I seem to deny it all the time. I deny the truth about my life all the time, maybe I do this because I dont feel comfrotable knowing the truth. Maybe its because of the drugs. I am not sure why but I have realized it recently, and I must say that I am almost to the point of denying something that I think is true. I dont know if you will actually understand that, because I kind of dont. I am so confused about life right now, Im not sure what to do...… [more]
  • Friends Confessions

    I was behind the wheel of the car that killed her...
    As I sit here and drown myself in a bottle of vodka, I come to realize it is time to get something off my chest. Something that I have been carrying around in a locked box for far too long... I killed her, it was all my fault. Never did I think that if I got behind the wheel I with just a little buzz that all of this would happen... So here it goes...One night me and my friends decided to car jack one of my friends mom.. We were all too wasted and high to drive but I was the brave one and did it.. We were doing good for a while or at least we all thought we were. Until we meet with dead man curve and a car at the same time. It all was a bit blurry but what I do remember is running to the oth… [more]
  • Embarrassing Confessions

    Pocket full of sunshine, I am ashamed
    Oh gosh I never thought this day would ever come, but it has and I am kind of embrassed that it has. I am not the type of person to listen to "pop" music, I am more into hardcore rap or rock.. BUT damnit I came across the song Pocket Full of Sunshine by Natasha Bedingfield. YES I know that it is so lame for me to listen to this song over and over, I actually started dancing like one of those cheerfull cheerleaders.. I am so ashamed of myself. I cant believe this is actually happening, but I think I am becoming something that I actually hate.. What the hell is wrong with me!!… [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    Never will I ever learn my lesson..
    If you mess with fire, you will get burnt..You lay down with dogs, you will get the fleas..Heard that before?? I have millions of times, yet I continue to play with that fire and lay with those dogs... Even after I catch the fleas and get burnt I go back to them dogs and that fire... Why? I have no idea..It is a waste of time to make the same mistake twice, if I didn't learn the first time then I won't learn the second time either. Still here I am still making the same mistakes.. I even know and can admit that they are mistake, yet I continue to do them... Maybe I just don't want to learn from them, Maybe I just want to continue doing what I want and say screw the rest...Maybe so...… [more]