Female , 18-21

well it has been a vicious cycle, i fall, i stalk, i try, i fail, i cry and feel self pity.. i am just tired of going through all these heartaches!.. why can't i have a happy ending? why do i always end up alone and lonely? is it because, i am making myself a soft target for this anguish? is it because i am too emo that i take things too seriously when i shouldn't have to? is it because i am too desperate that i try to make things work even if it is not worth it.. my friends say, there is no such thing as destiny and that you can make you own destiny if you want to, but i've always been the dreamer-type, always hopin and wishin and tryin then sulking and brooding and regretting over things.. (silly things that is). what bad fate i have.. can't i have a blissful ending this time? **sigh... i guess i just have to be stone-hearted so i won't be vulnerable to all these pain.. arrggggh

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Member Since Jul 29, 2011
Favorite Quote It doesn't matter how many times i fall, I will rise up stronger and faster each time.
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I Feel Trapped

Darkness They've keep me locked up, In a room with no light. Piercing silence, Leading my mind to insanity. The only sounds I hear are the ones I create. There's not escape. [more]
invisiblegirl904 has shared 8 Mature Experiences
  • I Was Raped And Now I Did Something Stupid

    :''''''( i have to warn you now when i try to right stuff that happened to me. i try to describe everything i remember so this is going to be really long.I Was Raped. i was in 6 grade so i was lik… [more]
  • I Am Abused Mentally

    He Won't Stop he abuses me mentallyhe don't even know ithow much it really hurtshe thinks he just being funnyhe tells me he's jokingbut stillhe called me nameslike ugly… [more]
  • I Think I'm Bipolar

    Im Crying Hysterically Now i was tried of thinking, " is there something wrong with me or not?" so i went on google and typed 'help me find a quiz to see if i am bipolar' and this website came up-… [more]
  • I Am Hurt

    He Hurt Me So Bad i have to tell this storyand man its pretty longso i'll start at the beginningand listen to my wordsi happened so fasti thought it'll never lasti was blinding by … [more]
  • Other Confessions

    sleep, i need it.
    school is going to start in a month and im really worry. at night i toss and turn but i dont fall asleep some nights. some nights i take five hours for me to fall asleep. this is not good because im bet im going to fall asleep in class when school start. my mother say im too young for pills (im 13 by the way) and i have no idea what to do. i need help and sleep. someone please help me. P.S. no one tell to unwind and drink tea or something like that cuz i already tried that.… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    my hopes and dream
    i would love to be a army solider/a marine. i think about it all the time. i dream about it. i research it all the time. i want to serve my country.… [more]
  • She Is Going To Reget It

    Posted on: October 4th, 2011 at 3:11PM

    my mom just told me that im stupid and a horrible daughter. i get a and b and one or two c. i was in a advance math class but i got kicked out for not keeping up and failing a few test i didnt understand. it was too advance for me. i told her yesterday and since then she been screaming at me and my dad also. there disconnecting my tv and not my computer. they know i'll kill myself if i didnt have at least that.i just got in a fight with my mom a few minutes ago and locked myself in my room bcuz i caught her looking thru my fone. she called me a ***** in spanish. then here i am writing while im crying locked in my room. if she thinks im a horrible daughter now just wait. their really going to… [more]


  • i am proud of myself

    Posted on: August 13th, 2011 at 9:03PM

    today mark a new personal record for me. i haven't cut myself in a month. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so proud of myself. i didn't even notice the time go. be4 the longest i have ever gone was like 11 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sooooooooo happy right now. i feel like jumping. I'm only 13 and i have to say Ive never so proud of myself my entire life. i want to know whoever felt this happy, leave a comment. i cant stop smiling.peace out… [more]


  • When I Read

    Posted on: March 13th, 2012 at 8:18PM

    When I read,The world around me fade away.For hours I can just sit there,And get sucked into the book.Wishing,Hoping!That one day I would wake,And be in one of the books I've read.Even if there full of pain,Drama,Sorrow.In books,There is at least one person.One,That you can lean on to.One person,You can trust.One person,Who I love,And loves me in return.One person,Who wouldn't hurt me,And even if they did.They would have the balls to man up to it,And never do it again.But here I sit and sigh,Looking at the sky with tired eye,And a torn heart.Hoping that one day,One.My dream would come,And all this because when I read,I'm in a new world.… [more]


  • How Did He See The World

    Posted on: October 10th, 2011 at 3:22PM

    i promise you that there is a point in this, just keep reading. i was in art today and i was just sitting there playing with my paint brush when my teacher comes up to me. so i try to look like i was doing something. it didn't fool him. he say " Amy, i was looking at your grades and saw that you have a A in writing so i talk to your writing teacher and she told me that you a spectacular writer. that you throw yourself into your writing like you like depended on him. why cant you do that in art?" i had no idea what to say so i didn't respond him. he then continued by saying "hmmmmm have you ever had writer's block?" i nodded and he said " art is the same sometimes you get completely block, yo… [more]