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I Wish I Was Happier

Happiness???? I've heard about it, but i don't understand it.  Maybe if, everytime I looked at any part of my life I didn't see failure, I could be happy.  I see myself as a failure in relationships... [more]
  • I Am Afraid of Being Alone

    Will It Ever End? I feel like I have spent my whole life looking for something that I can't find.  I've never had a true sense of belonging, no matter where I was or who I was with.  It always feels like t… [more]
  • I Cant Change the Past But I Can Change My Future

    I Can't Seem To Change The Future I got out of a terrible relationship that left me shattered 1 year ago.  People said it would get better with time, but over the last year things have only gotten worse.  It hasn't gone a… [more]
  • I Don't Know How to Take Compliments

    Why Can't I Accept A Compliment? Why is it that I can't accept a compliment?  I mean I can, but I either don't believe that the person really means it or I believe that they mean it but I feel like it's not justified.&nb… [more]
  • I Have Had My World Shattered

    Betrayed And Destroyed I was totally in love with a woman who told me I was the best thing that ever happend to her, she had never been so happy, she had never been so in love, etc....  But she was meeting random gu… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    I hate it all
    I confess. I just don't care about anything anymore. I am a zombie.… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    test this is only a test of the emergency broadcasting system.… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    Life and Time
    That sometimes I just feel like there is no point to life. I mean I just can't see it. Work sleep repeat. Over and over again. Nothing changes, just the time. I can feel the time slipping by, but I'm powerless to stop it. I really want to do something with my life, but I feel like a prisoner in a cage with invisible bars. Nobody else can see the bars, but I can't break through them. I can look out and see happy people around me, and that just makes it worse. I have no idea what to do. I'm out of ideas and out of patience. I just don't know how anyone can live for so long like this and not have some kind of breakdown or something. I wonder if I'm reaching my breaking point.… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    Feeling Guilty
    Why do I feel guilty when I shouldn't? My psycho ex started contacting me last week. No matter how many times I said, "I don't tust you and don't want you in my life in any way." she kept doing it. Finally I verbally let loose and said a bunch of really mean and hurtful things to her. I finally got through and she has stopped, but I feel terrible for the things I said. I can't apologize because that opens the door for more contact, which I don't want. I hate feeling this way.… [more]