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Male , 18-21

A lonely freak, incredibly handsome and terribly ill.

Last Seen Mar 9, 2012
Member Since Sep 20, 2011
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Books catcher in the rye, grapes of wrath, on the road
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Movies the Godfather, music and lyrics, rebel without a cause
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I Want to Know the Story Behind Your Username

Oh Come On - He's 1 Of The Best Actors Ever Yeah my name is Jimmy and there was a foster parent who had the name Dean, that I picked up for myself and my name really is James Dean so that's the story [more]
jamesdean4ever has shared 1 Mature Experience
  • I Love My Teacher

    Unrequited Love With A Teacher well, that's it reallyI am in love with a teacher and I hang around him in school and I try and get close but there's this teacher and pupil relationship thing you can't have, you know? … [more]
  • I Have No Idea What to Do With My Life

    Total Despair . Freaking Out since leaving school people have always said to me 'where will you be 5 years' and shaking their head mournfully for lost talent and youth etc etc and 5 years, yes, is now and I'm still trying getting… [more]
  • I Am In Love With My Teacher

    My Heart Is Breaking!!!!! My crush with this teacher is getting worse, it hurts!!!!! I just want him, you know? and I can't 'cause of that damn teacher and pupil relationship you can't have but I am 21 I should not be ru… [more]
  • I Am Alone All the Time

    Alone 24/7 it's true even when i do dare venture outside my flat I get lost in crowds, i lose myself and I feel really nervous, social anxiety and I always am alone, today I've been alone, not talking or eating … [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    words of self pity from the self obsessed
    how ever often and much you talk to somebody you never feel any better, they just give you a  load of advice that you can't follow 'cause i'm not motivated any more, don't know how to be and I don't think I'm lazy, just not inspired by anything anymore. i don't fall for as much bullshit as I used to.And I feel like I'm being petted by people, they talk to me, buy me a coffee and everything and they go home, do there thing and I'm left just wondering 'what the heck was that about?' you know 'cause i don't know how life is, I can't remember a time when I was happy, I'm not sure I know what happy is. i know the joy i feel sitting int he back of a mini bus, windows open and no seat belts on and … [more]
  • Happiness

    Posted on: January 3rd, 2012 at 11:43AM

    was unhappy and now i am not am not happy with being happy 'cause it doesn't feel like i thought it would i  still think i'm not living, 'Get a temporary high as you  watch the world going by' B Springsteen song  Happiness makes me shrink inside and  being alone for so long makes me when out in public like at college talk, and I talk, on and on forever and OK I'm a lunatic I can do that and there will be an explanation for it but I still don't understand it.  It's like I'm living for somebody else. i write my poetry and I edit, print it for someone else to read, I smile so other people don't think i'm a misery, I cut for attention you know and it's not like I don't care at all I mean other p… [more]

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