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Female , 22-25
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spending my time loving, hating is a full time job that pays no bills

I'm not who I want to be. I can't really describe what I've been, I just know I don't like it. I am changing though. It takes a long time to undo a lot in life. Especially if it took a long time to do it all in the first place. I'm getting better everyday though. Thank God.

Last Seen 9 hrs ago
Member Since May 14, 2011
Favorite Quote After the storm, a rainbow will form.
Heritage
  • 100% African American
  • and a little Indian
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Horoscope Aquarius
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Books God\'s Word, Chicken Soups, Left Behind the Seires, Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants series and well...all books just about! lol
Music I just love vocal acrobats. I like any song with meaning and true talent telling the story.
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Local Time March 5th, 12:15 PM

I Want More Self-confidence

In 2015 I will like myself. That's what I'm going to write on my dry erase board for New Years. I'm tired of caring what people think and being so hard on myself. I am not an ugly woman... [more]
jesscharnelle has shared 38 Mature Experiences
  • I Have Low Self Esteem

    This S U C K S My self-esteem is based solely around my horrid stupid appearance. I can't stand my body and everyday I wish I could just throw that huge half of myself away. Would weight loss help? HECK YEAH IT W… [more]
  • I Think I'm Ugly

    Being Ugly Is One Of The Most Depressing Things Ever What I hate most about being ugly is the limitations. It really breaks my heart that I can't go out anywhere without nearly everyone staring at me, some pointing and some even laughing. To walk throug… [more]
  • I Have Bad Teeth And A Hairy Body

    I'm Only Pretty In Pictures I make sure not to give off a toothy smile and I always hold the camera upward. That way no one will notice my fat neck, gapped teeth and hairy chin & chest. I'm terrified to meet the people that I've… [more]
  • I Have Done Things I Am Ashamed Of

    Ugh.... I'm so ashamed that I dropped out of school. And not just that but how many times I did it and the ages I was when all of this was going down. As a little girl my attendance was always kind of shaky. … [more]
  • Family Confessions

    love should've kept me from doing it
    At first I wasn't going to do this 'publically' I guess. I feel that I need to though. My other confession was not as hard at this one. I didn't feel as bad I guess. But enough with all this guessing.I have been stealing from various family members bank accounts. They trusted me to handle their bills and their spending and I was doing that at first. It wasn't until just recently that my grandma asked me to figure up all the money everyone gets all together. I did it, acting like I didn't already know. Everyone gets a decent amount and for a long time I kept telling myself that they didn't need it all so taking a bit for myself wasn't so bad. But then I had to really think about it. How would… [more]
  • About The Last Night Fight

    Posted on: June 24th, 2014 at 5:42AM

    I love EP blogging. I feel free on here. I can vent and get out my feelings and thoughts. Right now I feel blessed. The devil tried to get me down last night but he's lost again. I will not get depressed or angry and fall back into doing the things I shouldn't.I was ANGRY last night but joy came in the morning! God is with me and I am so glad about it. I am starting new things today and doing better with my time. I asked God to lead, guide and direct me. I said, "Lord, I want you to have full control over me."I'm ready to be my best self. Thank God. I feel happy.… [more]

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  • Explaining The Stealing ....and the Lying about it

    Posted on: August 2nd, 2014 at 3:42AM

    Grown folk shouldn't have to explain themselves. Especially to children. When you're grown you should know your way and not have to answer to people.But then there's me that's not grown and does things sometimes that's not right. That is when an explanation is needed. Let me start off by saying that I am in no way justifying my actions. I was wrong and I am admitting that.About the stealing, it wasn't grand theft as much as it was unauthorized transactions. I would spend about an extra $50 a month from the accounts....but  I was spending it on them. I would give Chris his card and tell him to go get himself something, I'd buy Keyshawn something with his money, I'd withdraw $20 from my sister… [more]

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  • My Youngest Sister

    Posted on: August 10th, 2012 at 5:11AM

    I love this girl so much. We're talking right now about all kinds of stuff. She reminds me of my mom. Tanisha is sweet, loving and herself. I even envy her a bit for that. She's decided she's going to be who she is and not care is no one likes that or not. Oh and she's gorgeeeeeoooooussssss! I love her. I love love love her. Even though she's extremely pretty she won't be one of those stuck up snobby center of attention types when she grows up. I can talk to Tanisha about anything. We do all kinds of things together. I'm so glad to have her as a sister.… [more]

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  • MYOB

    Posted on: March 3rd, 2015 at 2:23AM

    I tire of people that always have their nose in someone elses business. My uncle is one of these people. Anytime people are talking to each other he buts in and says, "whatcha say?" or "what's going on?" and worse, gives HIS opinion about OUR conversation. Also, someone can be in the middle of doing something and he jumps into that too. This man is a nusiance. He acts as if he thinks people don't know as much as he does, especially women. I'm tired of it.If he's talking to someone I don't but in with my two cents, even if I disagree with what he's saying or even catch him in a lie. He had stopped being so nosey for a time but now it's creeping back and I just don't know what to do about it. … [more]

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