Female , 22-25
Feeling ashamed
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I'm not who I want to be. I can't really describe what I've been, I just know I don't like it. I am changing though. It takes a long time to undo a lot in life. Especially if it took a long time to do it all in the first place. I'm getting better everyday though. Thank God.

Last Seen Jun 24
Member Since May 14, 2011
Favorite Quote After the storm, a rainbow will form.
  • 100% African American
  • and a little Indian
Horoscope Aquarius
Special day
Books God\'s Word, Chicken Soups, Left Behind the Seires, Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants series and well...all books just about! lol
Music @BSLADE, Beyonce, VOLTRON, Eminem.
Local Time July 28th, 10:32 AM

I Have Been Told I'm Ugly Numerous Times

This Is No Fun Let me tell you this a group I do NOT hold the honor of being the first story in. I hate being ugly. I look in the mirror and wish so hard that my body was sexier, face slimmer and hair longer. Let's... [more]
jesscharnelle has shared 36 Mature Experiences
  • I Have Low Self Esteem

    This S U C K S My self-esteem is based solely around my horrid stupid appearance. I can't stand my body and everyday I wish I could just throw that huge half of myself away. Would weight loss help? HECK YEAH IT W… [more]
  • I Think I'm Ugly

    Being Ugly Is One Of The Most Depressing Things Ever What I hate most about being ugly is the limitations. It really breaks my heart that I can't go out anywhere without nearly everyone staring at me, some pointing and some even laughing. To walk throug… [more]
  • I Have Done Things I Am Ashamed Of

    Ugh.... I'm so ashamed that I dropped out of school. And not just that but how many times I did it and the ages I was when all of this was going down. As a little girl my attendance was always kind of shaky. … [more]
  • I Have Bad Teeth And A Hairy Body

    I'm Only Pretty In Pictures I make sure not to give off a toothy smile and I always hold the camera upward. That way no one will notice my fat neck, gapped teeth and hairy chin & chest. I'm terrified to meet the people that I've… [more]
  • Family Confessions

    love should've kept me from doing it
    At first I wasn't going to do this 'publically' I guess. I feel that I need to though. My other confession was not as hard at this one. I didn't feel as bad I guess. But enough with all this guessing.I have been stealing from various family members bank accounts. They trusted me to handle their bills and their spending and I was doing that at first. It wasn't until just recently that my grandma asked me to figure up all the money everyone gets all together. I did it, acting like I didn't already know. Everyone gets a decent amount and for a long time I kept telling myself that they didn't need it all so taking a bit for myself wasn't so bad. But then I had to really think about it. How would… [more]
  • About The Last Night Fight

    Posted on: June 24th, 2014 at 5:42AM

    I love EP blogging. I feel free on here. I can vent and get out my feelings and thoughts. Right now I feel blessed. The devil tried to get me down last night but he's lost again. I will not get depressed or angry and fall back into doing the things I shouldn't.I was ANGRY last night but joy came in the morning! God is with me and I am so glad about it. I am starting new things today and doing better with my time. I asked God to lead, guide and direct me. I said, "Lord, I want you to have full control over me."I'm ready to be my best self. Thank God. I feel happy.… [more]


  • My Youngest Sister

    Posted on: August 10th, 2012 at 5:11AM

    I love this girl so much. We're talking right now about all kinds of stuff. She reminds me of my mom. Tanisha is sweet, loving and herself. I even envy her a bit for that. She's decided she's going to be who she is and not care is no one likes that or not. Oh and she's gorgeeeeeoooooussssss! I love her. I love love love her. Even though she's extremely pretty she won't be one of those stuck up snobby center of attention types when she grows up. I can talk to Tanisha about anything. We do all kinds of things together. I'm so glad to have her as a sister.… [more]


  • Pen Pal

    Posted on: August 7th, 2012 at 10:08PM

    Any else love writing as much as me!? Lol, I want a pen pal so bad. I think it would be fun and exciting. My life is boring and lonley and it would be nice to have somewhat of a friend via the mail, ha. SO if anyone is interested in that please message me. <3… [more]


  • life changing

    Posted on: December 19th, 2013 at 4:39AM

    I've been thinking about what I need to do with my life, so that maybe I can do what I want later on. Right now I am poor, unhealthy and depressed and I do not want it to be like that forever. I want change but I have been lazy and a bit too comfortable to actually work towards it. Even now I can not promise that I'll do what's neccessary for things to be different from the way they are not. But I will try. Trying is all I can get myself to do at this moment.I want weight loss (not just the 33lbs I lost and nearly gained all back either, I'm talking a 100lbs drop off)a drivers licensea joba boyfriendfriends to hang with some weekend nightsbeautyand mostly, happinessSometimes I feel like I'll… [more]