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I am me.....good the bad and the ugly!

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Member Since Sep 11, 2011
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I Have a Confession

To set things right. To look in your eyes and say how badly I blew it. How I now look and see what a terrible horrible thing I did and how awful I was. I stumbled in my growth and when I stumbled I... [more]
  • I Am Writing This For You

    My Darling Daughter. My dear girl it is so amazing to watch you grow. I never knew there could be so much joy in your discovery of who you are. You light up my life and bring me such happiness. To see your f… [more]
  • I Wonder What Will Happen Next In My Life

    Bring It! Where is life taking me? I don't wonder what is next.  It is all good. And only gets better.  As the path begins  It can seem so confusing and unclear There are so man… [more]
  • I Want You to Play With My Hair

    His Hands My Hair...ahhhh I love to lay in his arms as his hands stroke my head. I don't Know why but it always makes me feel so soft and wonderful. His hands are big and cover the side of my head and I feel safe… [more]
  • I Like to Collect Quotes

    If Only I Remembered Attitude Counts! The longer I live the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, t… [more]
  • Soul searching

    Posted on: December 7th, 2011 at 11:33AM

    I feel like I spend all my time looking deep inside me to see who I'm and what changes I'm making. I'm always looking inside, studying and trying so hard to know who I Am as it is changing so quickly these days. I haven't been able to stand up and see me yet because I'm always afraid of what I say what I do and struggling so hard to keep the old me dead. But what happens when the support I have doesn't support? What happens when the doubts begin to creep in and the questions arise out of old habit and nothing I say or do can make it better. This is where my searching takes me.  I have to keep pressing forward inspite of it all because I love the new me. I love the changes that are occurring,… [more]

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  • You are right Forest!

    Posted on: September 30th, 2011 at 9:28AM

    Forest you got it right. Life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you are going to get till you open it and take a bit. Sometimes you take a bite and get the most delicious flavor, it fills you and surprises you. Then other times you take a bit and it's nuttiness  is powerful and filling and delightful. Then there are times you bite straight into a turd that is covered in chocolate and disguised to look yummy. But whatever you get you can always start over tomorrow because it is a new day and it is quite an adventure worth tasting! … [more]

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  • Whatever!

    Posted on: September 19th, 2011 at 9:45AM

    Today is just another day. It just seems like I am missing so much out of this life. I'm not where I want to be. I'm not who I want to be and I don't know how to get there. When I was younger my life was full of adventure. I traveled everywhere saw so many wonderful and not so wonderful things. But then I settled down, tried to control my life a little. Settled into a family and work, went to school got educated and I'm seeing nothing for this hard work. It is so annoying and now I am so restless. I ask myself why did I settle down,why did I take out such huge loans to get a masters degree and to work so hard in my company when they just don't want to get bigger, reach higher and be success… [more]

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  • Death

    Posted on: September 11th, 2011 at 11:04PM

    Death is an important subject...one I don't fully understand. I don't fear death because I think my sense of time is messed up. So from what I get is that people are somewhere inside them afraid to die...they live with a small memory of this fear and some peoples lives dictated by this....now some people not so much and they live on the edge but I think it's because they need that adrenaline rush and want to fear death so they push the envelope....I never even think about it.  So my daily interactions don't ever involve the fear of death...this plays such an important part of why I don't think about aids, guns killing me, approaching the wrong person and being killed, car accidents or any ot… [more]

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