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Female , 31-35

i'm a doctor's thesis waiting to happen.

Last Seen May 13, 2013
Member Since Apr 21, 2010
Favorite Quote "All who wander are not lost"
Heritage
  • a little Native American (Cherokee)
  • and a little Jewish
Vices oh, i have a few......
Politics Very Liberal
Horoscope Sagittarius
Special day
Books anything by douglas adams, thompson, bradbury, just about anything i can get my hands on
Music psychopathic killer clown noise, anything hard, loud, fast, and mean, classical, eclectic
Movies too many.... depends on my mood
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I Can't Stop Thinking About You

I Know You Know I Can't Stop i want to keep you. i wish i could. i'm going out of my head; going out of out of my mind. i lie in bed at night thinking about you. i wake up hoping to talk to you. i know i'm in your head just like... [more]
juggalove has shared 76 Mature Experiences
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  • I Have a Daddy Complex

    Oh I Totally Do my daddy died when i was 8 and other than my grandfather i never had a father-figure in my life. i'd latch on to my friends' dads, date older men, etc. but i was uncomfortable calling a man "daddy" in… [more]
  • I Am a Submissive

    I Try To Be A Good Girl i love when i am called "little one". it makes me feel so safe. actually any term of endearment that alludes to the fact that i am dependent. i crave structure. i enjoy very much being being put … [more]
  • I Am Sick Of The People Who Bring Negativity In My Life

    I'm Not Perfect, And I Don't Pretend To Be and just because you think you are helping me does not make you right. telling me all things that i do wrong does not make it fact. it makes it your opinion. just because i'm not like you does no… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    ........waiting
    for the other shoe to drop. i woke up with a weird impending sense of doom. got some social calls and appointments tomorrow, so we'll see if something bad happens.… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    just frustrated
    i know i'm not the center of the universe. honestly- i really do know that. ok, that being said, i just wish i was able to take care what i need to without depending so much on other people. i've been independent, as much as i can be, since i was a teenager. but somehow my life always revolves around what others will or will not LET me do. i have no income of my own right now and have been a bit juvenile with the allowance i'm given. so it's my fault i'm in this position. i can't get my meds because i can't get a ride because i have no money for either. is it so bad that i just want to be taken care of sometimes. if i can't work for one reason or another, is it so terrible of me to want othe… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    dunno what though
    i need something in my life. i don't know what it is, i just feel like i'm missing something. like there's someone or something that i should have which i don't. it's an odd kinda feeling, like wondering if you left the gas on when you leave the house. the worst part is knowing i'm trying to fill this void with things that i know i do not need. maybe i just want to think there's more of life out there waiting for me. maybe i'm not really missing anything. maybe it's you. maybe it's just me.....… [more]
  • Funny Confessions

    omg i'm one of those
    BWAHAHAHA! i just realized i'm one of those obnoxious people who get drunk and post like 30 obscure music videos on facebook! lmao! i do it around 11pm-4am here which means i'm probably catching everybody stateside when they're getting off work. im a jerk. XD… [more]
  • positively charged

    Posted on: May 25th, 2010 at 2:45PM

    1. when i am determined, neither hell nor high-water can discourage me 2. i can create beauty out of chaos 3. i taught myself to macrame 4. i use my sewing kit like a pro 5. i can crochet 6. my paintings are always multi-layered and multi-media 7. i can tell jokes that make grunts blush 8. i would break myself just to do for others 9. i repaired a garbage disposer the first time i ever tried 10. i have a green thumb 11. i can bake as well as my gramma 12. i save as many animals as i can feed 13. i can carry a conversation with intelect 14. i can bluff and win 15. i love to go fishing, even if i don't catch nuthin' but a buzz 16. i am a total water baby 17. i love to expl… [more]

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  • i just wanna scream!

    Posted on: July 8th, 2010 at 5:46AM

    he had the car keys when we loaded the car with the recycling. then we watched iron giant while waiting for the movers to get here. they showed up and it took them maybe 20-30min to load the stuff up that they were taking. we ended up rearranging the furniture and not leaving the house that day. the next morning he woke me up so we could go to the gym together and when i was ready a few minutes later, no ******* keys. no keys anywhere. i tore up the house, he looked through the car. i checked everywhere, even in the fridge/freezer. that was yesterday. still no keys. i have ripped the whole house from stem to stern and nothing. i want to pull my ******* hair out. he's on leave and we were sup… [more]

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  • nightmares vs insomnia

    Posted on: September 16th, 2010 at 10:37AM

    i dunno which is worse. i wake up crying and shaking, then it takes hours to go back to sleep. last night i got maybe 4hrs all together. i took 4 sleeping pills at 9, the last time i looked at the clock it was 3. seems like the pills don't work. i tossed and turned for hours after i put my book down and turned out the lights. maybe i'll brew some more catnip tea. it doesn't help me sleep, but it does change the demeaner of the dream. so at least i may be able to stay asleep. *shrug* i've been sluggish and lazy all day. i feel awful. tried to take a nap, couldn't of course. i'm just so drained. maybe i'll make a big pot of the tea and drink it for the rest of the week. i can't wait till i get… [more]

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  • i want a blizzard!

    Posted on: January 4th, 2011 at 1:17PM

    i want to go for a nice, long walk tomorrow with the dog. she's doing so much better this winter than she did last winter. i want it to keep snowing. big, deep drifts. i want to forget i can't smoke. i want to forget i might start getting shots in my head from the temple to the chin. i want to remember what it was like when i was a kid and had never seen snow. the way i imagined it would be if i lived in those magical realms where there really was a white winter and not just dead brown grass. i want to soak this up just in case i never get to see it again. pretend to be in narnia. waiting to see a dear standing in a field of white as i turn a bend, then blinking and wondering if it was reall… [more]

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