Kanguyak 36-40, F

I am a professional woman, late 30s , and have been married for 10 years.  I have one son who's 9 and is the most important thing in my life.  For my entire marriage I have been the sole provider for the family.  It started out as my husband staying home to take care of our infant son but as my son has grown its just moved into what I see as laziness.  When I ask him to get a job and help he either ignores me or gets angry.  He doesn't give me the attention and respect I crave.  I feel like my existence now is to just take care of the family.  I'm the money maker, the ATM card.  I give up my own happiness to take care of them and at first I didn't mind.  Now I hate it.  Is it bad?  I know so… [more]

Im a professional working mom. I am married and I have never felt so unloved. I am so wanting to find a mature man, who is not afraid of his feelings, who will get to know me and like me for the good person I am. I am far from perfect but I am tired of not being wanted, not being appreciated, no being loved for the caring, wonderful woman I am. Is that so bad?? Anyone out there in a similar position?… [more]

I have a very small family. Aside of my son, there are only two people I worry about - my mom and my husband. You would think it wouldn't be so bad. But these two, add in my son, can't operate by themselves. I am constantly the coordinator, the one responsible for every single action. Something doesn't happen - my fault. Something lost - my fault. You weren't where you were supposed to be - my fault . I was in the hospital last week and I still had to tell those two adults where to find me, when to come, what to do. ENOUGH! Please. Coordinating your lives, plus my own, plus caring for my son since you, husband, wont assume any accountanbility for your own son, is too much for me to handle. I… [more]

Everyone I meet, I automatically start out guarded. I don't want to be that way. I would love to approach each new relationship or interaction with an unbiased open mind. Everyone deserves that. However I am so guarded and protective of my feelings. I've been hurt and disappointed by so may people in my past. Friends, family, spouse. Maybe its my fault and I will eventually realize that. Even now I let amazing and genuinely wonderful people in who I feel have my best interest at heart and genuinely love and care for me. However I still feel like at any moment the floor will drop and they will be gone. Not their fault. Its me. I HATE BEING THIS WAY!… [more]