Female , 31-35

I'm updating this since my first description I wrote was depressing. This is me and not how I feel. I'm nice, genuine and honest and when I find a friend or even a boyfriend I am extremely loyal and would do anything for them. I am single and have been for 10 years and honestly I do not get it! lol... I'm a pretty girl, not to sound vain but only honest, I'm smart and kind, not to say I don't have my bizarro side (anyone as nerdy as me and knows comics, esp. Superman will get that reference) but we all do. I was in a very unhappy marriage but that was a lifetime ago and sometimes I actually forget that chapter in my life even happened. The only decent thing that came out of that whole thing was my little pal, my favorite person to hang out with, my daughter. I am an artist but as writers get writer's block at times I seem to have artist's block since I have not done anything for 3 years. I write now instead which is a skill I never developed because I always drew. I love music and all kinds but I am a rock/metal girl and was lucky enough to be a teenager when the Seattle Sound came along. I was a fan of all of those guys but 1st place has to go to Alice in Chains. Now I listen to a lot of whatever really but my favorite band is Breaking Benjamin mainly because he is an amazing lyricist and the more I learned about him the more I appreciate his writing. He comes across in his writing as serious and a little dark sometimes but he's a total nerd and I love it! He also likes comics, has kind of a crazy sense of humor, seems to genuinely appreciate his fans, and he lives a pretty private and modest life. I have a lot of respect for that. So, maybe that is why I have been single for ten years. I've been waiting for him :) That is a joke. Also, yes I have been through a lot but I'm sick of playing the victim so I'm doing everything I can right now to be myself... someone I barely even remember. I would love to meet people I might have things in common with so if you think we are at all similar then just add me :)

Last Seen Nov 10, 2013
Member Since Apr 17, 2012
Favorite Quote
  • 100% American
Vices I'm a smoker, used to do drugs but have been clean for 3 years, and other things
Politics Moderate
Horoscope Leo
Special day 3-30
Books I love English literature but Jane Austen is my favorite author... I also love Jane Eyre because she is such an amazing heroine.
Music rock/metal - Breaking Benjamin is my world :)
Movies True Romance, ummm... drawing a blank but that has been my favorite since i was a teenager :) I hate girl movies so if Julia Roberts is in it there's no way in hell I'm watching it.
Local Time May 22nd, 8:24 AM

I Love Poems

Core I stumbled upon this earlier today and I always loved this guy and band but being as young as I was during the height of grunge popularity, I was more interested in the sound than the people behind... [more]
karakara1 has shared 3 Mature Experiences
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  • I Am Mentally Damaged Due To My Past

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  • I Turned Out Liking You A Lot More Than I Originaly Planned To

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  • I Like a Good Quote

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  • Solitude

    Posted on: December 26th, 2012 at 1:29PM

      Solitude   Laugh, and the world laughs with you; Weep, and you weep alone. For the sad old earth must borrow it's mirth, But has trouble enough of its own. Sing, and the hills will answer; Sigh, it is lost on the air. The echoes bound to a joyful sound, But shrink from voicing care.   Rejoice, and men will seek you; Grieve, and they turn and go. They want full measure of all your pleasure, But they do not need your woe. Be glad, and your friends are many; Be sad, and you lose them all. There are none to decline your nectared wine, But alone you must drink life's gall.   Feast, and your halls are crowded; Fast, and the world goes by. Succeed and give, and it helps you… [more]