katherine01 18-21, F

i know that everything is changed, life is not at all the same, people who existed went away, and those who were never there...now came,   my heart is full of mixed feelings, i don't knw how to react, i am unable to understand, what exactly my life is becoming,   it's been a little while, since you have been away, it's been a long time, since we talked the last day..   i don't know why, but i still think about you, somewhere deep inside my heart, you still are there, because you were allways an important part..   everyone says that i should move on, but they don't show me the way, i should walk on, they just know my name and not my story, i don't know how can they j… [more]

I really want answers to some questions arising in my mind constantly but I'm not able to figure out anything. Something is really wrong in my life and I'm not able to understand the reason I'm feeling this way. I feel irritated,frustrated,I'm not happy,neither I'm sad..I mean I don't know what's going on...I want to shout I want to really burst out crying but I feel as if there's so much I want to let out but I can't.. I don't know why..I don't know why I feel so screwed up...I'm alone in the crowd..I feel so empty..I feel I'm invisible..… [more]

Alright..now I even can't share things with you..because I don't know what you think right now or how you take things..seriously I mean earlier if I cried even a lil bit in front of you,you used to calm me down n talk n understand whatever I say..but now..now you start feeling weird and awkward just because you're best friend who doesn't say anything to you,listens to everything you say,stood up against you and your behaviour towards her you hate her? What? Don't I have the right to feel bad about anything? Just because this time I said it on your face all the love that I had given to you,all those times when I was the only one there for you doesn't count? Really?! You know what instead of f… [more]

i feel pathetic...does this world like only the people who are perfect on the outside? i mean what about the nature of the person? his/her personality? does only being beautiful,hot,skinny,having perfect hair,perfect clothes everything that matters? really? is this society so damn narrow minded?i am fat...YES i am FAT.. SO WHAT? does it changes the kind of person i m? bloody hell! i hate it i just hate it...you're my best friend and i know that you think about my good but that doesn't mean mocking around about me in front of others all the time is cool. it's not..really..if you think you're encouraging me to change myself then i'm sorry but it's not helping. and why do i have to change mysel… [more]