Female , 22-25

Living life in the gray area

Last Seen Aug 20, 2013
Member Since Dec 17, 2010
Favorite Quote
Vices Booze, and that order lol
Horoscope Leo
Special day
Books Dealing with Dragons, Demon Child trilogy, and The Hobbit
Music Metal head 'til I'm dead
Movies Legend of Drunken Master, Search for the Holy Grail, and Stardust
Local Time May 25th, 7:15 AM

I Am Going Through Diagnosic Tests

They Don't Know What's Wrong I'm loosing feeling in my hands and legs. I don't always feel hot, cold, vibration, or pain in my hands. In my legs, I don't feel pressure, or tempurature. However, I'm over reactive to pain in my... [more]
  • I Overcame Anorexia

    I Will Always Have Anorexia, But It Doesn't Mean I Have To Be Anorexic. Unfortunately, I am one of those who were born with anorexia. There is something wrong with my brain whether it be the chemicals or how the nerves link up (they're not entirely sure). The sight and sm… [more]
  • I Grew Up With a Verbally Abusive Mother

    Finally Able To Talk About It Everything was fine up until I was 7 yrs old. My mom was really great: she worked during the day, spent time with us when she got home, and never even raised her voice if my sister and I were there.… [more]
  • I Just Want to Be Loved

    20 Years Is Too Long All my life, I have never been loved by someone. Sure, my friends and family do, but not in the intamate romantic sense. All my friends and even my sisters are now in commited relationships, and I'm a… [more]
  • I Have Recurring Themes In My Dreams

    The Traveller Recently, I've been having a recurrent dream about a traveller. The first time, I was camping with friends and family when I met him. The dreams after that, it is always in large social groups: partie… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    Such a great night, but now I'm nervous
    Another great night with the guy I like. He drove almost 2 hours to see me again, in snow flurries. When he knocked on my door, I opened it to find that he set up two camp chairs with blankets, a small camp stove, and hot chocolate on my front lawn. We sat out watching the snow and talking for almost 3 hours. He seemed a lot more relaxed tonight, but the shyness was still gone. As it turns out, we have a lot more in common then I thought. He didn't try anything tonight, just held my hand. It was so bitter-sweet to have him hold my hand. To see and know he was holding it.... I just wish I could have actually felt it. He told me he'd see me next week sometime. For the first time in a long time… [more]
  • Funny Confessions

    Great Moment...Had to Share!
    Out at dinner with a large group of friends. Ended up talking and joking most of the time with my best friend and my buddy. The three of us hadn't hung out in a long time, so it was nice. My best friend and I razzed my buddy at the end (because that's what it usually boils down to lol).Well, my best friend had been playing keep-away with a pen. My buddy stands up and says, "You know, I'm not afraid to hit a woman in public!" I lightly slap him and say, "Neither am I!" We all needed a few minutes to recover from the laughter.I had to share!… [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    Late night er I mean morning thought
    Missing someone is both a blessing and a burden. It's a burden because that person is no longer with you and you will always feel their missing presence and the pain that causes. It is a burden to try and carry on with your life without them. It is a burden because you never truly heal. However, to have someone in your life that meant so much and held that special place in your heart, now that is a blessing. Even if they are no longer there.… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    Music Therapy
    I've been missing you a lot these past few days. I just wish you were here to get my mind off things. Today was especially hard for some reason and I just felt like crying all day.I was playing an old mix CD of mine to help me reminisce (lame, I know). Well, one of my all-time favorite songs came on that I forgot was on the CD. It was exactly what I needed to hear. I smiled for the first time all day.These lyrics feel the most right:And if you were with me tonight,I'd sing to you just one more time,A song for a heart so big,God wouldn't let it live.Still thinking of you. Still missing you. You're still an a**hole.May angels lead you in.And, yes, I'm still going to get that tattooed on my for… [more]