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I Am Wondering What the Point In Living Is

The Note Before I Go On the day that I die There will be a note at the foot of my bed That will read "Theses are the reasons I’m dead: A little joke A little snicker Dig into that... [more]
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    I Miss My Best Friend
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    You want to know that truth?
    I don't mean to ruin everything.I just do.One way or the other, what I have, I ruin. That's why I'm so discontent all the time; I dream of a better life and I'm constantly disappointed. Constantly let down. By myself. I'm toxic.I ruin all good by trying to hold on so tight I smother it and the people around me. I just get so scared of losing it all and being alone with myself. I want to escape myself. I'm two people: me and the monster inside y head. I want to smother it; silence it; kill it, but it's me, at the end of the day. I ruin lives, friendships, everything. Eventually, everyone leaves and I'm jealous because I can't escape the demons inside my soul. I lose touch with reality countle… [more]