lauramarks23 26-30, F

i miss my sisters and my friends but i act like i don't and sometimes i feel like Sean has his hand over my mouth when i wanna scream or like i wanna swim but he is holding me back and sometimes i feel i don't belong i wanna be normal i wanna be depressed,..or do i?? i wanna be happy i wanna be free but then i don't sometimes i feel trapped sometimes i wanna be normal sometimes all the time i cry to be normal,....sometimes i feel lost,..sometimes i lie myself i been found,..i tell everyone i don't care but i do,...i was happy i got caught it meant someone saw me when i got caught i asked the guy you saw me do that cool i felt like a person that day June 19Th 2010 i was not freaked out at all… [more]