Female , 18-21

Last Seen Sep 5, 2011
Member Since Jul 14, 2011
Favorite Quote It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.
Horoscope Scorpio
Special day
Books The vampire chronicles, anita blake series, the vampire files, crank, and soooo many more
Music Disturbed
Movies Queen of the damned, boondock saints, loads more
Local Time May 4th, 5:11 PM

I Am Scared

Of Never Living.... My biggest fear is either staying how I am and never living and experiencing good things in life OR giving into a realty bad and negative fear I have which is that I will just cave and end up in an... [more]
learningtosmile has shared 2 Mature Experiences
  • I Need a Diet Buddy

    100+ To Lose? Pcos? Teen? Need A Diet Buddy That Can Relate :) I need a diet buddy, especially one that can actually relate. I know I have a lot to lose and I am committed to losing it but I still feel I need someone to take this journey with. I am only 19 and am… [more]
  • I Am Sick of Being Single

    One Day Someone Will Like Me.... I try to tell myself I have accepted being the single one. After all I don't even like myself [working on that] so why would anyone else? ┬áBut the truth is I am not okay being single. I am far past j… [more]
  • I Can't Look At Myself In the Mirror

    Just Brings Tears... I try to avoid them. If I am really down I don't even try to make myself look less repulsive. I skip the make up and just brush my hair into a ponytail without even looking up at the mirror. Too much … [more]
  • I Have Insulin Resistance

    Diagnosed But Now What? I have had very bad luck with doctors. Three doctors and a year later after being told I had PCOS and was insulin resistant I started taking metformin. [ 4 -500mg pills a day]. I am sorta horrible wit… [more]
  • the never ending search to learn how to live.

    Posted on: July 23rd, 2011 at 10:53AM

    learn to breath, learn to smile.....learning to love and live. I feel like im trying to learn something from an empty textbook. Screamed at by my own thoughts I just stress and stress and flip from the cover to the back of the book searching for a plan, searching for a way to learn. But no matter how many pages I turn it will not change the fact the book is empty.  I am a planner in life. I NEED a plan. I need to see step by step. Yet with life there seems to be no manual no way to learn at all.  Simply do is what i am told. But how do you do when you've never been taught? So here I sit in a dark basement on my own. Lost in thought, lost in search for a plan deep within my mind. But here I h… [more]