likitall 31-35, M

I sit here, letting my fingers reveal my mind, my emotions, my moods and my desires. At times I find myself wondering why I sit here…..my mind analyzes these thoughts even as I type away. Why do I choose to be here rather than be more involved with the physical world that is outside the door as I used to be? And I come to conclusions that suit me. I don’t want the connections and the contacts that lead to giving away ones emotions at this time in my life. I don’t want to give my physical self to someone at the moment. I’m just a little bit tired of that direction in my life for now. So my fingers type away and life happens outside. Some I will interact with. Some I won’t react to at all… [more]

I have loved two women in my life...one betrayed me many times and I found that I didn't love her anymore......the other...well.....we'll never meet.....… [more]

There are two times that I've regretted what I've said at work. Placing my face in my hand and shaking my head at my tongue tied ways.One was when we had parked the fire engine behind the wrecked car on the busy freeway. My job was to protect my crew from harm and to manage the scene. But when the young, blond emt from the ambulance came up to me and asked me.."What do you want me to do Capt?? and I told her.."Go the the drivers door" the one closest to the rushing cars. "Check on the driver and I'll stand here behind you a watch your ***!" THAT'S NOT WHAT I MEANT! lolThe second...We had taken our first break of the day, we sat around the dining table at the station, one of my paramedics, a … [more]

I find myself embarrassed to admit that I'm probably the most technologically inept person in my age bracket...lol. Most people text and have their nose's buried in the phones 24/7. I just can't bring myself to do it! First of all my thumbs and fingers are big and I'd need a keypad the size of doorway to not hit double keys each time..lol..secondly and most importantly..I'd miss too much of life if I buried myself in a text window and not be looking at the world and the people who walk around in it. I love people watching! Especially at airports! It's fun watching and imagining the stories..and talking with people rather than just reading characters on a screen...so that's it...I'm deliberat… [more]