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MY NAME IS ARCHIE. I'M ON HERE BECAUSE I WAS READING STORIES OF SOME WHO WERE ABUSED AS CHILDREN. AS I READ I WAS ABLE TO RELATE WITH THOSE SHARING THEIR STORIES, SO I DECIDE TO JION THIS SITE, & SEE IF I CAN FIND SOME HEALING AMONG THOSE WHO KNOW WHAT IT WAS LIKE -- TO SOME EXTENT, AS OUR CIRCUMSTANCES DIFFER IN CERTAIN AREAS. I DO HOPE TO MAKE FRIENDS ALONG THE WAY.
AS A CHILD, I NEVER WAS LOVED BY EITHER PARENT. I SUFFERED MUCH ABUSE, MENTALLY, PHYSICALLY & SEXUALLY. THUS, THERE'S A LITTLE BOY INSIDE OF ME WHO NEVER MATURED. THAT LITTLE BOY ( & MAN) EARNESTLY DESIRES TO BE LOVED. TO LOVE & BE LOVED. ALTHOUGH I'M IN MY 40's, MENTALLY I FEEL 24. & AT TIMES, I ENJOY BEING A "KID". I BELIEVE I'LL ALWAYS BE YOUNG AT HEART.
BECAUSE OF MY MENTALALITY, I ONLY DESIRE TO FIND A YOUNG WOMAN, WHICH OUR LORD WILLING, WOULD LEAD TO MARRIAGE. & I'M REALLY ATTRACTED TO ASIANS. I'M TIRED OF BEING ALONE & LONELY. I THINK I'M A COMPASSIONATE PERSON & I WOULD WANT A COMPASSIONATE WIFE, SOME DAY.
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I Am a Survivor of Child Sexual Abuse
Raised Abused, Unloved & Unwanted
I'VE READ SOME OF THE STORIES WRITTEN ON THIS SITE, AS I CONCIDER TO SHARE MY OWN, I WONDER WHERE TO START & WHAT TO AD. DO I WRITE AN EXTREMELY LONG LIFE STORY (I TEND TO BE LONG WINDED.), OR DO I...
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First Time Was An Experience, But The Actual First Time Was DisapointingHI! USUALLY I START OUT MY SHARINGS BY TELLING EVERYONE MY NAME IS ARCHIE. BUT, FOR THIS STORY, JUST CALL ME FRED OR CHARLIE. LOL MY FIRST EVER SEXUAL EXPERIENCE WAS GREAT & A NEW EXPERIENCE. … [more]
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I Feel Life Is Just Passing Me By
A Troubled Mind Lost In Time....HI. MY NAME IS ARCHIE. I WISH TO SHARE SOMETHING I'D WRITTEN YRS AGO. IT SURE SEEMS TO FIT WITHIN THIS GROUP. A TROUBLED MIND LOST IN TIME WHAT IS TIME? IT J… [more] -
I Am a Survivor of Child Sexual Abuse
The Shadows Of Our Past....HERE'S A STORY I'LD LIKE TO SHARE. IT IS A TRUE STORY, AN EVENT THAT HAPPENED TO ME. I WAS LIVING IN DORMITORIES ON A base. I WAS RETURNING FROM CHOW HALL, GOING BACK TO MY DORM. AS I WALKED MY MIN… [more] -
I Feel Life Is Just Passing Me By
I've Felt This Way For YrsHI! MY NAME IS ARCHIE. I CAN CERTAINLY RELATE TO LIFE JUST PASSING ME BY. FOR YRS I'VE BEEN ALONE, LONGING FOR SOMEONE TO LOVE ME. (WELL, ALL MY LIFE ACTUALLY.) I FEEL THAT I'M REALLY NOT LIVING. I S… [more]
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NIGHTMARESHI. WHEN I WAS A LITTLE BOY I WAS SO SCARED OF MY ABUSE FATHER. NOT REMEMBERING WHAT AGE I WAS, I KEPT HAVING A REOCCURRING DREAM. FIRST LET ME SAY THAT NEXT TO THE HEAD OF MY BED WAS THE TRAP DOOR TO THE baseMENT. I KEPT HAVING THIS REOCCURRING DREAM OF MY COMING UP OUT OF THE baseMENT'S TRAP DOOR. HE HAD 2 HORNS ON HIS FACE & HIS FACE WAS ALWAYS VERY ANGRY. I'LD WAKE UP BEING TEARIFIED. AFTER SEVERAL NIGHTS OF THIS, I WOULD GO TO SLEEP WITH THE LIGHT ON. THAT'S UNTIL MY FATHER YELLED AT ME FOR LEAVING THE LIGHT ON. I WAS SO SCARED & COULDN'T EVEN TELL ANYONE ABOUT THE DREAMS. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I'VE EVER TOLD ANYONE, & I'M TELLING IT TO THE WORLD. … [more]
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LOVE HURTSONE SIDED LOVE REALLY HURTS. WHEN SOMEONE HAS A SPECIAL PLACE IN YOUR HEART, BUT WON'T ALLOW YOU INTO THEIR'S, WHILE TELLING YOU THEY LOVE YOU TOO, IT HURTS.… [more]
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NOT QUITE THE RIGHT CHOICE OF WORD...HI. I LIVE IN TEXAS, USA. EVERY TIME WE GET THUNDERSTORMS, THERE'S ALWAYS A CHANCE FOR TORNADOS. LAST WEEK A FRIEND & I WERE DISCUSSING THE SAFEST PLACE TO GET IN THE ADVENT OF A TORNADO. SHE MENTIONED HOW SHE GETS INTO A CLOSET THAT'S LOCATED IN THE CENTER OF HER HOUSE. I LET HER KNOW, "THE SAFEST PLACE IS IN THE BATH TUB. ADDING IT'S LIKE A CIFFEN, IT'LL PROTECT YOU." COMPARING THE BATH TUB TO A COFFEN, WHILE SPEAKING ABOUT TORNADOS, IS NOT THE RIGHT WORD TO USE. WE BOTH GOT A GOOD LAUGH OUT OF IT. I JUST MEANT IT IS AN ENCLOSED AREA, KEEPING YOU FROM HARM. OOPS!! I DON'T ALWAYS USE THE RIGHT CHOICE OF WORDS!!… [more]
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