luckyhippogriff 18-21, F

I hate when people saying committing suicide is selfish. It's not you are doing what's best for you sure but it's also better for others to because you aren't dragging them down or holding them back anymore with you depression. I'll admit it is painful for others around you when you kill yourself but they will eventually heal but if you depressed and always on the edge of suicide anyway it's better because they don't have to keep worrying about you and wondering when and if you will do it. … [more]

A lot of the time now I feel alone even if I'm in a room full of people. I normally try to stay around a lot of people so I don't hurt myself but now even surrounded by people I feel alone even more alone than if I'm in my room with music playing and everyone is gone. It doesn't matter who I'm with my family or friends I still feel alone. The feeling is getting worse every single day. … [more]

I applied for a job then I went to a friends house and while I was there I got high with a couple of friends then the people I applied for called and wanted an interview but I have to pass a drug test and now I can't. And I have to explain to my parents why I can't pass.  … [more]

If someone calls me fat or ugly I won't eat for days. I'll push myself to the point of getting dizzy and sick at the gym just so I feel like I can prove them wrong. I've went two weeks before on nothing but water just because a guy I liked called me fat. I've puked up anything I had to eat during those times.  … [more]