Female , 22-25
Something tells I'm not awake, but I'm skeptical.

Last Seen Feb 8
Member Since Aug 21, 2012
Favorite Quote When saints are just dead sinners amended and revised, no wonder why greed and humiliation become the norms to bound and regulate humankind.
Vices Polydrug use
Politics Anarchist
Special day
Books The Machinery of Freedom, Ethical Intuitionism, The Vindication of Absolute Idealism, In Defense of Pure Reason, Animal Liberation, A Song of Ice and Fire series, The Wheel of Time series.
Music Sybreed, The Interbeing, Rush. Anything that is not reptitive or simple I am prone to favouring. I mainly listen to metal that includes synths or is symphonic.
Movies Shawshank Redemption, The Exorcist III, The Dark Knight, V for Vendetta, Inside Man, The Good Shepherd.
Local Time May 22nd, 7:07 AM

I Suffer From Severe Depression

I Wish I Could Hide From This Grim Picture Inside My Head I think that when we choose to subsist in this corporeal form that we are just exercising our vanity. That our future is so important that we should endure through misery; the cost, the weight of our... [more]
Madej has shared 2 Mature Experiences
  • I Battle Existential Depression

    If I Can't Find A Meaning To This Fearful Life, I'll Become The Enemy Of Mankind It is not existence itself (in the sense of conscious experience) that is the malign ulcer I seek to identify here. It is human nature, even extensive to our deficient social institutions, that are to… [more]
  • I Hate Hypocrisy

    I Loathe This Deficient Civilization This is a story not of individual hypocrisy, but one of a deeply interwoven blindness inherent in our culture of apparent contradiction. I witnessed today what is perhaps one of the worst manifestatio… [more]
  • I Am a Misanthrope

    Softly In Our Arms, We Embrace The Disease Called Humanity. It is a wonder that the modern mind does not look upon on the cosmos and not feel the weight of their irrelevance. What drives the human desire for petty evils such as power, reputation, and dominance… [more]
  • I am Vegan

    People Who Order Pizza And Then Take The Cheese Off Are Retarded. Seriously, what is up with these idiots? If you already took the time to give direct financial support to a product with cheese on it, then what does it matter if you eat it or not? The only reason no… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    I am comforted by the fact that we are all going to die.
    We deserve nothing less than to be crushed under the weight of mortality. There is the potential for the achievement of real value, even in the eternal stretch of the cold void, but we waste it by fulfilling hedonistic goals. Why do you choose to remain complacent and contend yourselves with your pointless existence?The moral reality is still ignored in our search for the aesthetic life, even after a millenium of failure for this intergenerational experiment. In the end we get the suffering we deserve for blindly sucking the natural world dry in quest for its bitter juices of sin.Tyrants and hedonists shall too face the futility of their own existence in their dying breath, this is the only … [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    I don't agree with empathy.
    Standing in relation to the events of the past year or so, I feel burnt out from engaging my sympathies; I have to really dig deep into my internal wiring just to experience a flicker of that once eminent spark once again. Consequently, it has become really difficult to express my feeling externally, every second of it makes me cringe and writhe with discomfort, and even self-contempt. At this point, I feel extreme guilt over ever venting my feeling to others; I try to avoid it as much as possible otherwise. That's not to say that I advocate locking your feeling inside a box though. Instead, one should simply eradicate the flawed foundations that hosts them and then enjoy the bitter taste of… [more]
  • Health Confessions

    I can't imagine life without drugs.
    In the past two years, the longest time I've been entirely sober clocks in at about a month. I feel like I can't deal with the everyday nuances of life if I have to face it sober. When i try, i find that the enjoyment of everything I do I find is now reduced tenfold. Not only that, but I become less productive and able to respond to new stresses and situations. It doesn't even matter if I'm in withdrawals or not, as I'm trapped in this psychological obsession with drugs. It doesn't matter what substance it is so long as it has either euphoric or sedative properties. I make sure to not get physically addicted to one thing, though I am still mentally addicted to the whole process of it.I consi… [more]