Female , 18-21

Last Seen Feb 21, 2014
Member Since Jul 10, 2010
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Horoscope Sagittarius
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Books Five People You Meet In Heaven, The Notebook
Movies The Notebook, Titanic
Local Time May 22nd, 6:48 PM

I Feel Like I'm Not Good Enough

Perhaps, I Never Had It.   Nothing i do ever feels like its enough. I just realized that today, now. When Joe was around, when i was still sort of me, nothing i do was ever enough. Even when i did... [more]
  • I Have a Story to Tell

    Memories Of A Faded Tale It’s March and it’s snowing. The bizarre weather is like a reflection of my heart, if I have any. In snowy weather we met, in snowy weather we parted, in snowy weather I missed you. I long… [more]
  • I Have Seen a Shooting Star

    A Shooting Star Is.... A shooting star is a lump of space rock burning up as it gets closer to Earth's atmostpher or is it more than that? To many people a shooting star is a symbol of which they cast their wish upon,… [more]
  • I Love Poems

    Dust Memories fade Like ancient paintings may Leaving nothing but grey. To say its pain or pleasure Is like finding fiction treasure.   In vain life passed by,… [more]
  • I Love Poems

    A Moment Of Truth Has Come A moment of truth has come,  I loved you once, You loved me too,  Looking back so many regrets,  Looking past so many memories. was it love or was i… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    I wan to believe...
    Mocha rose? what does it mean? I want to believe everything you said in the email but i cant. it seems like lies your filling my head to make me fall into your trap again. Well i will not, i shall not and I cannot. I did love you so much but you were manipulative and an *******. Three chances you blew it. and now your telling me you dream about me? my one word response. SERIOUSLY? I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE i loved you, i hate i was good to you, i hate i gave up everything for you. I hate you. Is it really that hard to leave me alone??? … [more]
  • Love Confessions

    Perhaps I am really that worthless.
    I feel like im always competing for his love. I feel like I am never what he wants or believes in. I feel utterly hopeless. I feel like am object. I looked on fb right now and he deactivated his account, kinda like he never was there. was he? I feel so confused and cant sleep. I really want to share my story with someone out there. Is there anyone willing to listen? I really want to share my feelings with him. Would he listen?… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    i cant sleep. dear k i think its your fault. why do you disturb me in my dreams? i wonder what your dreaming about. … [more]
  • Love Confessions

    Confession for lost love.
    There is a thought that comes to mind today. My heart still aches for you, I wander around like a mindless zombie. I really want to die but I dont want to commit suicide again. i have realized alot of people out there are waiting for organs. I wouldnt mind donating because it could help someone out and I could remember the best of you and be with the memory of you forever. I could watch down on you and guard you from harm. Should i do it? I feel so empty right now anyways.… [more]
  • A journal of broken hearts and promises. day 01

    Posted on: July 18th, 2010 at 10:49AM

    From the moment you looked at me so many mornings ago, i still remember the harshness yet unexplainable sadness in your eyes. I am sorry for the mean things i said.I really do. i did love you, i do love you and i will love you. You make me so furious why cant you are so weak-minded? How could you throw something so precious away? Dont you remember sitting at central park with me making up constilation? Dont you remember how we talked till morning? Dont you remember us fighting and crying and loving each other more after? We have over come so much. Its heart breaking that you can throw it all away, again, for the words of a dishonest man. I hold on to your memories everyday and i still believ… [more]


  • A journal of broken hearts and promises. day 03

    Posted on: July 21st, 2010 at 1:51AM

    When i saw my phone record today on my phone bill, I saw your number. I stared at it for a long time so many flash backs. You know its not the same if its not you. Tomorrow is the fireworks, we were gonna go see that remember? Why do i want to break out in tears randomly through out the day? You know since i moved back home, I procrastinated unpacking. I left everything in boxes and bags outside my room door. if i unpack the smell of how you did my laundry is going to surround me, making it harder to not cry. Did you unpack yet? Its sad because there is no way you can reach me, I changed my number, deactivated facebook, blocked you on msn. A part of me wants to erase you and a part of me doe… [more]


  • Am i?

    Posted on: December 11th, 2010 at 5:32AM

    I thought it wouldnt have hurt by now, i thought i would be used to the pain. But M, you know what. the truth is... what is the truth? what good is the truth? I thought I wouldnt feel pain anymore, i thought i was immune but it burns a hole in me even deeper... scortching I must say. M, you promised that it wouldnt hurt this time. You said it wouldnt hurt as bad, I would barely feel a thing but its burning me up. How is that possible? i tried holding my breath for a couple seconds hoping the burning sensation would go away, but in the back of my mind the omnious melody of "Moonlight Sonata" gentally hums in the background. My face feels itchy, and stingy. i think its the dried salted t… [more]


  • A journal of broken hearts and promises 06

    Posted on: October 3rd, 2010 at 9:49AM

    He wrote this to me today: I want you to please read this. I thought this might mean something to you that I explain everything since this was on my mind a lot.I don't want to get back together and I don't expect you to forgive me or anything like that. I just want to explain some things to you and I want you to listen. First off, I haven't talked to J since a few days after we split up. I have been figuring out my own direction independent of both of you. I didn't have anyone besides you two – all my time was spent with either you or him and I had no chance to figure out things on my own. - J: I did pretty much everything he told me to do. I felt that he could do no wrong an… [more]