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I enjoy REAL life as explained better at my blog
Livenotonevil.blogspot.com where I write about my "deconversion" from christianity. I am happy to be here at EP! Thanks for stopping by!

Last Seen This member has placed their account on vacation and will not be responding to messages until their return.
Member Since Feb 11, 2012
Favorite Quote I didn't understand that I didn't understand...until I understood...(mine)
Heritage
  • a little German
  • and a little Irish
  • and a little Scottish
  • and a little Welsh
Vices checking out EP at odd hours (lol), support forums
Politics Conservative
Horoscope Leo
Special day 5-26
Books The classics mainly
Music From classical to classic rock.
Movies Would rather see live performances; love comedy and romances mainly.
Local Time July 31st, 6:35 PM

I Want To Write Poetry From The Soul

My Love My LoveFor years I dreamt of you My Love,Your arms holding meYour lips touching mineYour mouth hungry for mineYour voice; so warm and lovingYour heart beating... [more]
Missalaineyeus has shared 3 Mature Experiences
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    Reality Of Bpd Living with and loving who suffers from borderline personality disorder is the most challenging relationship that I have ever experienced.When my Love has a "good day" or moments where he … [more]
  • I Married a Man With Borderline Personality Disorder

    A Typical Day For A Wife Of A Bpd A day with a BPD starts the night before and he had talked about a "family" issue that┬ádisturbed┬áhim last night while watching Criminal Minds and the News. I went to bed and he seemed fine, even aff… [more]
  • I Will Always Listen To My Child

    My Son Is Very Special To Me I value childhood. I did not have a "daddy" and my "mom" did the best she could to have a good relationship with her kids but she could not give us many things that I have determined to provide and ha… [more]
  • I Married a Man With Borderline Personality Disorder

    The Man Of My Dreams If you have EVER loved anyone with a physical disability, you CAN clearly SEE and know that your loved one might require something of you to help them live a quality life with you. You would more than… [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    I confess; I do not think of myself enough!
    I didn't say that I "don't think enough of myself"...I think that I DO think enough of myself to take better care of myself but my thoughts have gone toward my husband, son or our pets or in mourning my mom's passing, I NEED to think of myself MORE. I need to "make more time" for me. I confess that I FEEL selfish and I WANT things FOR ME. I want TIME for myself. I want to INVEST in myself.I WANT to write our love story; I have a computer now and I am ready. I have times in the morning after I take my son to school.I need a break from my autism spectrjm/asperger son. I love him dearly but I AM TIRED. I would like to pamper myself in a spa and enjoy some time alone or with my husband AWAY from… [more]
  • Blogging

    Posted on: April 3rd, 2012 at 6:42AM

    I am so sorry. I have forgotten about this blog and yet a dear member has been so kind to remind me with her thoughtful comments. Isn't it funny that we write and may not be expecting anyone to read it? As a "wannabe" writer, I find it amazing that anyone other than myself would really care to read what I think and feel. However, when I reread some of my blog entries I find that they are quite insightful and have a large spectrum of feelings and thoughts; quite surprisingly coming from my mind.Blogging really should be considered an art and practice of discipline, it is for my writing as well as a great JOY to me. Like music or painting, the tools needed to create the beauty are purely eleme… [more]

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  • Sunshine does a soul wonders...(slightly sad, loss of parent)

    Posted on: February 20th, 2012 at 10:35PM

    I live in one of the GRAYEST states apart from the state of Washington which I hear is cloudy and rainy most of the time. Lately, the sun has been shining, the skies have been blue and cloudless and the weather has been near 50 degrees. I have been walking my dog more and enjoying watching the daffodils peeping their green stems above the still nearly frozen ground. It isn't Springtime yet but it wouldn't bother me a bit if it was early this year.It feels like the sun has hardly shone since my mom died. She passed away in Sept after a very short 3 month diagnosis of 4th stage cancer. She left us peacefully but I still miss her greatly. It reminds me of an old Bill Wither's song "Ain't no sun… [more]

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  • Valentine's Day joy and sadness

    Posted on: February 14th, 2012 at 9:38AM

    Have you ever looked forward to a holiday, sharing it with family or that "special someone" only to "be HIT"with past pain and memories of loss and sorrow? That's how I feel today.Last Valentine's Day was the first one in 25 years that I really enjoyed; I reunited with my first love and he sent me a dozen red roses to my workplace. We met again the very next day.This past year of being with him has been as hard as it has been wonderful. I had many changes in my life that brought sorrow, my mom passed away in September...and then there were the joyful times of getting a new English Mastiff puppy as an addition to our family.This Valentine's Day is what I call "a whole hearted" Valentine's Day… [more]

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  • Another Monday; oh I mean ANOTHER Monday!!!!

    Posted on: April 9th, 2012 at 7:55AM

    Truthfully, Mondays are pretty nice for me as I do not work outside the home, I have "no weekend to end" per se. After I take my son to school, the morning is mine, all mine...Our puppy, all six months and over 105 lbs of him (English Mastiff) LOVES to go along with us for the car ride. We return home where he usually heads for a nap on the sectional in the family room; he is so cute, I just want to get up from my desk and give him a hug but I don't want to disturb him.My laptop is sitting facing the fenced in backyard. There are no day lilies up yet; just green grass and evergreen trees. I like facing East into the sunrise; hearing the birds and relaxing while I hear the puppy breathing dee… [more]

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