Female , 18-21

I love music, modeling/doing photo shoots, art, tattoos,drawing. My modeling photos are for the uses of my photographers and myself. All rights reserved. You may not use or share my photos. You will be defriended, blocked, and reported. My favorite quotes: *So he's not the brightest crayon in the box...he's still my favorite color.
*The only thing standing between me and total happiness is reality.
*Love is not who you can see yourself with. It is who you can't see yourself without.
*You asked me what was wrong, I smiled and said nothing, when you turned around and a tear came down and I whispered to myself... everything is.
*When you are involved in an accident and someone ask's "are you alright?" say back "Yes fine thanks, I'll just pick up my limbs and be off".
*I know in my heart that one day I will find a man who thinks all of my scars are beautiful.
*I love you yet I hate you its like I want to throw you off a cliff and then run really fast to the bottom and catch you.
*I don't suffer from insanity I am enjoying every minute of it.
*Laying there with your arms around me I felt so comfortable and safe. My heart was beating a mile a minute having you so close to me. As you played with my hair and kissed me I couldn't help but smile straight from my heart. I could see how much you cared from the look in your eyes. It made me never want to let you go. To just stay wrapped in your arms forever. Where nothing else matters but you and me.
*I wish I saved all the tears I cried for you so I could ******* drown you in them.
*Don't **** me off, I'm running out of places to hide the bodies!
*If my heart had wings I would fly to you and lie beside you as you dream.
*Reality is for people who lack imagination.
*I only smile in the dark.
*I love sleep. My life has this tendency to fall apart when I'm awake.
*I need you. I don't know why, but every now and then in my life, for no reason at all, I need you.
*If you don't like the way I am, then don't come around me. If you don't like the way that I talk, then don't listen. If you don't like the way I dress, then don't look. But don't waste my time telling me about it. I don't care.
*You and me are inevitable, you're all that makes me happy but if you break my heart again, I'll kill you.
*The knife just slipped. Sixty-seven times.
*Why don't you just sit down, close your eyes and invent your own world? When you were little you did, even with your eyes open.
*For someone who is suppose to be "just friends" why do I always get butterflies in my stomach when you smile at me.
*I don't know if I like you or love you, want you or need you, all I know is I love the feeling I get when I'm near you.
*A girl asked a boy if she was pretty. He said no. She asked him he liked her and he said no. She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever. He said no. She then asked him if he would cry if she walked away. He said no. She had heard too much. She needed to leave. As she walked away, he grabbed her arm and told her to stay. He said "You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I don't like you, I love you. I don't want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever, and I wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would die.
*You see her sitting there and you think 'shes so sad' but its not that shes sad, shes simply given up on pretending to be happy, shes tired of getting up every morning and putting on her fake smile, telling herself 'today will be better'. She doesnt want to be an inconvenience or a bother anymore... she has stopped looking for the light switch in the dark room she calls her life.
*I'll fake all the smiles, if it stops all the questions.
*That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time.
*I play the same song, over and over cause it reminds me of you.
*Stop the world I wanna get off.
*You know you're in love when you're as close as you can physically get to that person and it still isn't close enough.
*You asked me what was wrong, I smiled and said nothing, when you turned around and a tear came down and I whispered to myself... everything is.
*Wait for the man who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the man who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you. The one who turns to his friends and says, 'thats her...'
*A guy out there was meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soul mate, the one you can tell your dreams to. He'll smile at you. He'll brush the hair out of your eyes. Send you flowers when you least expect it. He'll stare at you during the movies. He'll call or txt to say goodnight or just cause he is thinkin of you. He'll look in your eyes and tell you, you're the most beautiful girl in the world, and for the first time in your life, you'll believe it.
*The hardest thing about growing up is that you have to do what is right for you even if it means breaking someone's heart. Including your own.
*Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real. Mad because I don't know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Sad because I need you day and night. Angry because you won't take my hand. Aggravated because you don't understand. Disappointed because we can't be together, but still I'll love you forever.
*Some people try to understand, but nobody can know what living like this is like.
*Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I dont have.
*There were reasons we met, reasons for the good times and reasons for the bad times, and most importantly a reason to end. We have more to learn, more to experience and more loving to do in this lifetime.
*A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.
*To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back.
*I am in love with the man I can't have and I have the man I can't love.
*I'm often silent when I am screaming inside.
*It's hard to love someone who's in love with someone else, you have to ignore the pain and swallow your pride. Just to be a friend... but that's all worth it because sometimes friendship last longer than love.
*You really know you love someone when all you want is for them to be happy, even if that means that you are not a part of it.
*I don't know what it is really, but sometimes it takes everything in me to not reach out and run my fingers through your hair or turn around and hug you when you are least expecting it.
*Take it from someone who's fallen... it's a long way down.
*I am perfectly happy being his friend, in fact I love it... I just have this incredible urge to kiss him, that doesn't go away... and this feeling that we would be perfect together.
*I don't miss you: I miss the person I thought you were.
*You look at me and think, 'she's so happy' but there's so much behind this little smile that you will never know.
*I called because I wanted you to know that despite everything that' happened and all the miles between us right now, I still think about the way it was in the beginning.
*Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The square pegs in round holes. The ones who see things differently. They aren't fond of rules, and they have no respect for status quota. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the one thing you can't do is ignore them because they change things. They push the human race forward and while some see crazy ones - we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that can change the world, are the ones that do.
*I love how you hold me. I love how you tell me I’m beautiful. I love how you look at me funny when I say something stupid. I love how you make me happy. I love how you smile when I see you. I love how you laugh when I say something random, or stupid. I love the face you make when I snort when I laugh. I love how you ask me if I’m alright when I cant stop laughing. I love how you make me feel. I love how you tell me I look cute. I love how you like my pajamas. I love how you talk about music for hours. I love how you say sweet things to me. I love how you whisper in my ear when it’s really quiet. I love how you squeeze me so hard when I hug you. I love how I can talk to you for hours about anything, and you listen, and I listen. I love how we call each other as soon as we wake up. I love how you sound when I wake you up. I love how my dog has more sex with you than I do, just kidding. I love how you want to spend every day with me. I love how you squeeze my hand. I love how you rub my back, and kiss my neck. I love how you lay next to me, and tell me that everything’s perfect. I love how everything is perfect. I love how you see the person I really am. I love how you say we are perfect for each other. I love how you make me cry, but not because I’m upset or sad, or you hurt me, but because you made me the happiest person ever. I love how I wake up in the morning for you. I love how I anticipate seeing you. I love how you kiss me. I love how I look at the empty space in my bed, and wish you were filling it. I love how I get nervous when I see you, but feel more comfortable with you than I do with anyone else. I love how my parents love you. I love how you deal with my picky eating habits. I love how you worry about me, and take care of me. I love how you pay for me when we go places. I love how you insist everything will be alright, and make me feel at ease. I love how you keep me warm when I’m cold. I love how you give me weird looks at awkward moments. I love how you stop everything for me. I love how I’m important to you. I love how I make you happy. I love how you make me happy. I love how you make sure I stay in line. I love how I only want to be with you. I love how I only think about you. I love how I stop everything because I get distracted and have to call you. I love how you get jealous. I love how you are when you are with your family. I love being with your family. I love how I can see myself with you forever. I love how we talk about being together forever. I love how you think I have cute feet. I love how you tickle me. I love how you get mad when someone says something to upset me. I love everything about you.
*"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." -Marilyn Monroe
*In the end, music is your only friend.
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traveling, singing, and writing poetry and songs.

Last Seen Oct 19, 2012
Member Since Sep 09, 2011
Favorite Quote *Unique is an understatement, I'm just messed up.
  • a little Irish
  • and a little Welsh
  • and a little French
  • and a little Scottish
  • and a little Danish
Vices Music, Movies, Soda, Cigarettes, Margaritas/Jack and Coke
Politics Conservative
Horoscope Sagittarius
Special day
Books don't read, it makes me fall aleep.. Literally
Music ♥ Rock ♥ hip hop, r&b, a bit of everything
Movies horror... And a variety of others
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