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Female , 51-55
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A woman with a mind and heart of her own. My soul belongs to God, my life is just a little shaky now but life is still fun..

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I Believe Age Doesnt Define Maturity

Nope because at 51, I act more like 25, don't feel like it within this broke body.. but my mind...yea I still laugh, make others smile... so yea responsibility not an age thing, maturity... [more]
mommaceitta has shared 4 Mature Experiences
  • I Have Been the Spouse of a Drug Addict

    The Pain Never Stops, I Wish I Could Forget But Can Not Let Go I thought I was marring the perfect man. The perfect man has turned into the worst part of my life. I long to be free but know that can never be, not until I finally breathe my last breath. the lies, … [more]
  • I Am Disabled

    Disabled But Denied Yesterday I got the LETTER OF DENIAL!!!!My heart sank and all I could do was cry as I read they know my condition won't allow me to work as i have but I can find substantial employment. I have w… [more]
  • I Living With An Alcoholic

    Lies Part Of The Disease!!!!!! Disease or excuse?¬†personally I think its an excuse.Why are you angry? I didn't do that to you!!!! Wait I don't remember so I didn't do it...does this sound like your life?Alcoholic… [more]
  • I Have Chronic Back Pain

    Is There Hope? I am in so much pain today I want to scream, why do people have to suffer like this? I don't know how much more I can take...it is just to much.¬†Physical¬†therapist ended my sessions because it wasn'… [more]
  • Friends Confessions

    lost highway
    We meet at a driving school, you know they put you up in a motel you get up early work hard all day then go back to the motel.My marriage was on the rocks, at the time thought it was over, why I wanted to hit the road in a big rig.Everyday we flirted and one or both I am not sure always managed to be near the other, yea we were attracted to each other. I wanted him so bad, and yea he wanted me too. We remained friends after the school and on into our driving careers. We talked endless on the phone, when I was feeling lonely or scared he had a built in radar and always called, his words always the same hey sweetheart. The beginning always of our conversations. I was his sweetheart, he was min… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    A life of fear
    Why is one question I have yet to ask my Lord. I already have the answer, so now I must ask myself why. Where did I go wrong, already have that answer. Why did I give in? I have that answer too.I gave in to fear, My head always my head had been beaten so bad with those big ole fist, yea he is a big man 265 lbs and stand 6"5. My head doesn't show the marks I later learned, he was quite experienced in his craft. I have hid in the bushes for two days, cold and raining but frozen in fear. I have ran with never gonna look back, he found me. I joined the fair for God's sake. How was I found and why? Now these why's I have no answer for, not a clue. I did his dope for awhile, gave in again, finally… [more]
  • My life's journey

    Posted on: May 25th, 2012 at 8:30AM

    2 more pills added to the 15 I already have to take daily. So I wonder......How much lower will I fall before they say I am disable?I miss being the crazy lady that made everybody's day  at work. They still call and hit me up on facebook and that just makes my day.I wanted to record my daily life here as to know how long once this process got so bad how it effected my life.I went to a funeral and walked into the church and out with help, got to the grave side and froze. I leaned and held to a tree while they got the dreaded wheel chair. Oh I was so embarrassed I could not fight the tears that rolled down my face.Then yesterday I walk into the kitchen and turned to do something, wow I can not… [more]

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  • made it lol still here

    Posted on: August 27th, 2012 at 11:24PM

    Today I have came to a truth, my medicine is making me sicker, but not sure which ones to stop....diabetesBPHeartLyricProzacnortriptyline+ 9 more not even sure ofso is this medication making me lose my balance, and messing with my thoughts, of course it is, so now will i continue to take it are stop????? This is my big question for stupid daily blog. this is no longer a help...I think I just have the lost the ability to think as I should.....A letter is handed to me in my bag with scrips that informs my family are care givers they need to watch me close as suicide thoughts increase with this medication, this is with 5 of em 5 wow!!!so yea the thoughts keep going toward that!!!!! duhMaybe I w… [more]

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  • wednesday

    Posted on: July 18th, 2012 at 10:01AM

    Just a few more days until my son's wedding, yep this mama is so happy. He seems so happy and they are so in love. Just hoping that I feel good, Lord please help me to in good health for the wedding. Today can't walk across the floor. oh this pain is driving me crazy. they say February my case will come up. Why in the world would they make anybody wait like this???? i so need to have something done to this back, it is killing me. I wish I had the right answers.. oh well. God will provide.… [more]

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  • thankful

    Posted on: August 4th, 2012 at 10:09AM

    A chat with the best friend, my lil friend stop by for a visit, a sister leave me something outside cause i can't go to the yard sales with her. Now this is a good way to start a day, then I find out my son and new daughter in law coming for a little while.So this means take another pain pill and try real hard to make a pan of biscuits, slice fresh maters and roastbeef gravy  some of my boys favorite things. I so love my son, he stole my heart the day he was born and has had it ever since. So today will be wonderful, really wish i lived closer to my kids. they want me too also. Son wants to get camper live in his yard, daughter got me room fixed at her house. they both love their mama, but i… [more]

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