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i am here to enjoy the many people that EP has to offer. I have a open heart and mind to all those who are willing to have the same. I love to talk about many subjects. Read some of my stories and see if we really have anything in common before you add me. I am a magickal woman who knows anything is possible. I also believe that anyone deserves a second chance and no one is perfect.

Last Seen Feb 6, 2013
Member Since Jul 27, 2011
Favorite Quote You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back. Barbara de Angelis
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Horoscope Aries
Special day 4-19
Books I am a lover of the written word
Music Enya, Bon Jovi, Really i love all music
Movies Wizard of OZ, The God Father, Mystic Pizza..
Local Time July 28th, 7:44 AM

I Am Sharing The Musings Of Moonstar 312

I Am Blessed While i was doing a 10 minute meditation during lunch today i was stuck with this overwhelming Joy of just being...living. I realized how blessed I am to be who i am.I live in a place... [more]
moonstar312 has shared 20 Mature Experiences
  • I Have Trigeminal Neuralgia

    Intense Today i was diagnosed in 2006 with this dreaded disease. I am luck for i do have periods of time when i really don't hurt too much.  But today the pain is intense and i just want to lay down and cry… [more]
  • I Have Diabetes

    Fighting Again I was diagnosed in April 2002 with type 2 diabetes. I started out on pills, diet and excersize. At first i did great.  I decided to try the all meat diet and then i got really sick. At the time i was… [more]
  • I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

    He Said I Was A Mistake the concrete floor was hard and so cold.  I am scrunched between to metal shelves and wishing i would somehow make myself just disappear I was a mistake and not meant to be he yells to me… [more]
  • I Sleep With a Teddy Bear

    A Piggy Really I have several stuffed animals and pigs are my favorite. I happen to love their cute little pink faces and noses.there is something that is comforting to me to curl up with a sweet little … [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    Building a wall around me
    I have decided that i am building a wall around my heart. No one is ever going to be allowed to hurt me or destroy me again. I think that friends will always hurt me and i cant take it. My heart is already so wounded from loss and it happened again.… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    scared
    I used to see magick in everthing and slow i am losing my ability to see magick at all. I used to delight in the simple act of just being and enjoying a crisp fall day and now i don't feel much of anything.. i am numb..I long to be a person who could just roll with the punches all the time, but the lastest set of punches are more than i can take .. more than my heart or soul can experience without possibly losing aspect of myself forever.If i care or love anyone.. they leave.. either by death or deed but the result is still they leave and i just can't do this anymore.each tear i cry will be one more brick around my fragile heart and hopefully i will learn not to care or love or anything anym… [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    dreams
    i keep having really bad dreams over and over and over. they are of a war that is in the future. What is hard about these dreams is i wake up and i am shaking and so scared.. i will go back to sleep and the damn dreams will continue.I have had dreams before that have come true and now i am wondering at what point do i get really scared...i wake feeling tired and worn out and set apart from the people around me..this is really hard to deal with and i am not sure i can deal with it. i am not one of those people that can pull out lottery numbers and i am not a medium like the people on TV.. but i have experience moments of true sight into what lays beyond and i am not always happy by what i saw… [more]
  • forgetting

    Posted on: December 12th, 2011 at 10:13AM

    I am having a very rough time the last few days...i am forgetting my mom's voice and the feel of her skin.. the way she used to hug me and light up when i would come home..The light that surrounded her is not there.My dreams are jumbled and filled with pain. Archangel Michael my constant companion guides me out and for that i am so grateful.. but it is still hard to go through those dreams.. I am being taken through the last moments of her life again.. where i am standing there and i am watching them prepare her for surgery and i know she is not going to make it.I know this. I look at the nurses laughing and joking about their upcoming weekend and I know that in a few short hours my life wil… [more]

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  • i feel really foolish

    Posted on: January 11th, 2012 at 5:02PM

    so everything has been really stressful for me . My job .. well i am just not certain of anymore.. a co-worker/friend finding out she has breast cancer.I feel overwhelmed and just really sad. So i did something really stupid.After i clocked out at work i went to my car and then i reached for my phone .. to call... my mom.. who has been dead since June 2010.i stopped when i realized what i had done and i began to cry and i still am and can't stop.. (note i don't recommend driving and crying at the same time)In  that moment i wanted so bad to just talk to her and tell her what was going on.. how scared and upset i am.. and i feel like i have lost her all over again.   The sense of loss is just… [more]

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  • letting go

    Posted on: December 22nd, 2011 at 12:36PM

    It is always hard to let go of someone you love. i have been told over and over that Time is really the only way to get through  the ache and pain the is experienced. I understand to some people that it sounds as if i am emotionally immature because i am not able to just pick myself up and move forward with-out a hitch. I am in awe of those who can lose a someone in their family or someone they are really close to and not be devastated by it. From the time i was 4 I was taking care of my mom. I remember clearly her getting sick because she just had my brother and she had no one else to help her , but her 4 year old daughter. I realize that there are so many co-dependency issues. I also know … [more]

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