Male , 26-30
I didn't realize how much I missed it here, till I came back. <3

I think more strife is caused in this world by lack of understanding, than will ever be resolved by the pursuit of justice.

Last Seen Feb 12
Member Since Aug 28, 2009
Favorite Quote Evil is lack of understanding; faith in the illusion, "I am alone."
Vices The occasional cigarette, chocolate, and adrenaline.
Politics Moderate
Horoscope Gemini
Special day
Books Conversations with God, Tao Te Ching, Celestine Prophecy
Music Music that I can see, taste, and feel.
Movies Into The Wild, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, What Dreams May Come, The Matrix Trilogy
Local Time May 24th, 11:05 PM

I Signed Up On Helpx

Work For Food And Lodging Helpx is a website that lists places that will put you up in shelter and feed you, in exchange for work. There are places you can stay all around the world listed there; some countries have thousands... [more]
NeonBlueMidnight has shared 25 Mature Experiences
  • I Hate My Dad

    Dear Dad, I Hate You Dear Dad, I hate you. I've hated you for nearly as long as I can remember. Let me count the ways. I hate you for every time you attacked me vocally. You called me a loser, a nerd, a little asshol… [more]
  • I Have a Son

    A Sad Story I was careless with an ex-gf of mine, and she got pregnant.  I have not paid a cent in support, nor have I been anywhere near him.  Of course, that is exactly 100% of my income now, so it's not like… [more]
  • I Think Sex Is A Spiritual Experience

    Synergistic Energy Exchange When I talk about sex I'm not specifically referring to intercourse. To me, a kiss is sex, holding hands is sex, even a conversation can be sex. Its about entities giving each other energy. It happ… [more]
  • I Get Deja Vu Often

    Double Deja Vu?  I get Deja Vu fairly often, and occasionally it happens in an extra weird way...  I don't just feel like I've done something before, but I get the feeling that I've had that Deja Vu befo… [more]
  • Health Confessions

    I Will End My Life, New Years Day 2013
    I thought I would give the world a chance to make some sort of miracle happen that gives me a reason to stick around. It's not that I haven't had some good times here. And it's not that I haven't wracked my brain every day for years trying to think of some kind of solution that doesn't involve suicide, or mass murder. I've tried everything, from hallucinogens to every self help book around on creative thinking. My conclusion? I can't do a god damned thing to make anyone else change their mind. It makes me sick to look around and see how many of you there are, and how most of you people are living out your lives. I live as a member of this generation, completely without hope, and it's o… [more]
  • Lets Start the Blogging! Water Fast Day 1

    Posted on: January 3rd, 2010 at 4:29PM

    Current weight is 136.5, down 1.5 pounds since the last time I measured 2 days ago. The last food that I ate all of yesterday in preparation for fasting was 4 carrots and a lot of spinach. Oh, and a tomato, so I'm not surprised to see some weight loss already.11 hours into my fast, and all's well! I slept probably a good six or seven hours... oi, I had almost forgotten how nasty it is waking up from sleeping so long. Right now I'm not following any sleep schedule whatsoever, as I practice something called free sleeping. Basically I sleep whenever I feel like it, for as long as I feel like it, it's very simple. I plan to sleep like this throughout my fast since I understand that the de… [more]


  • So You Want To Quit Smoking?

    Posted on: December 25th, 2009 at 4:23AM

    So you want to quit smoking do you? You're not trying to BS someone are you? Is this because your significant other wants you to quit, and you're just secretly making a feeble attempt at it just to placate them? Do you say you want to quit because it's just too expensive, but you still enjoy smoking? Maybe you're past all that, and you're really sick of smoking, and the only thing keeping you there is that it's just too hard to quit the addiction.I'm here to tell you that whatever the reason is, you can quit smoking, easily, without any drugs, without any willpower, and with barely any withdrawal symptoms.I know, I'm crazy right? You've tried to quit before, and you got terrible shakes … [more]


  • Dad Uses

    Posted on: April 1st, 2012 at 2:03AM

    What a sick ******* father I have.  He takes about 40 zopiclone, at least that's what he says he took, and then must've crashed into something to make a big noise so that my grandparents, who he's living with, would hear him.  That's what I call a half assed suicide attempt.  Then, when all the family is gathered around, he says the reason he tried to kill himself is because he has dementia from toxic mould in his house, and he has all this work on his house that he can't do himself because the of the mould, and all the house work he says he needs to do has him so depressed that he just had to kill himself. The thing is, if anyone ever asked him for help, he'd charge them a premium for his t… [more]


  • I get emotional [RANT]

    Posted on: August 28th, 2009 at 4:48PM

    But then, I don't do anything about it. So in effect, my emotions don't matter in the slightest. In effect, emotion without some action associated with it is really completely irrelevant. Emotions do have some chemical component, and so maybe they matter a little bit. But that extent only affects your own body. Apparently stress can cause things like premature aging, and various stress related illnesses. And on the other hand, positive emotions can cause you to heal, some people claim. Some might find this information obvious, but I feel I need to make the statement out loud. By not acting out my thoughts and feelings in reality, I have myself, become completely irrelevant. Regardles… [more]