NorthernOntarioMama 31-35, F
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My Husband Had An Emotional Online AffairI recently confirmed red flag feelings I'd had for several months about my cheating husband. He was having an emotional affair with some woman in Wa. He confessed to everything, cut all ties with her … [more]
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I Love My Husband But I Can Not Trust Him
Emotional AffairI love him with all that I am, with all that I was and all that I will ever be but I can't trust him. Not after catching him having emotional affairs with not one but three women. He said the main wom… [more] -
I Am Mentally Damaged Due To My Past
My Past, My Present. What About My Future?The things I've seen, done and been through in my life time have shaped and molded me to where and who I am today. My parents were frigid and distant growing up, they treasured and adored my baby sist… [more] -
I Want My Husband to Care About Our Marriage
I Want Him To Talk To MeI want so badly for him to talk to me about his inner feelings. The inner him, what makes him tick, how he feels, what he feels. I want him to express his emotions more openly. He's always been the st… [more]
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Must ConfessNormally I don't let it get to me but today it's just way too much for me. I must confess I hate stupid people who don't take the time to read something or get to know someone. Particularly on here or other social networking sites. People just assume they know you, assume they can comment without seeing the whole picture or knowing the whole story. I've posted bits and pieces of my whole story in many sections in a manner that requires people to actually take the time to read through my profile. To actually, at least, graze over my stories and profile to get the gist of who I am and what my experiences are. Stupid people who don't do this get weeded out of my personal circle (none of you d… [more]
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Thinking About it MoreI've been thinking about female companionship more and more these days. I don't understand this urge after 13 years of being able to just look I now suddenly find myself desiring female presence and intimate companionship. I was given permission by my husband to do so if I feel the need, and it is a need because I am hard wired like this, it is how I am built. However, I can't seem to bring myself to seek that female companionship. I can't seem to remove myself from my vows and from my moral fiber of monogamy. I'm so lost and so very conffused and have no idea where to start to resolve this issue at all.… [more]
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Desire RevengeI confess - I would love to take revenge on my husband and do to him what he did to me. It's beneath me though, it's not me. It's only a very small fraction of me that would like to take revenge and hurt him back. I don't know if it's a normal emotion to feel, or a normal response to an unfaithful partner or not. I don't know what is normal anymore or what isn't. I won't do it though, I'm not that kind of person. I know how painful and hurtful it is and what it feels like and I wouldn't wish it on my worse enemy.… [more]
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Cyctic Acne
The most embarrasing and humiliating thing one can ever go through. I remember having clear skin as a teen, even early twenties I didn't have much acne at all. Since my tubal ligation surgery however, cyctic acne has been a very humiliating part of my life.It's frustrating paying 200 dollars for make up and acne washes that won't cause me to break out. Won't redden my face and make me look like some clown from a twisted horror movie (think Stephen King's "IT"). I'm frustrated, sad and not feeling very pretty at all.I've known for some time that for a lot of women, it's hormonal induced. I especially break out badly under stress, lack of sleep or because of the dreaded PMS cycle (sic ovulatio… [more]
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Living in the Great White North
A lot of people ask me what it's like to live here in Northern Ontario. The first thing out of my mouth is "never been better financially and best move I've ever made". People look at me funny when I say that because in Northern Ontario (specifically the tiny town I live in) there isn't very much for work in their eyes.Wrong, they couldn't be so much more wrong. Yes, it's hard finding good jobs here but they are here. You just have to put the effort and work into it to find those good jobs. You have to also drop the pride act and take what you can get before you find that good paying job here. It isn't about pride for jobs, it's about being financial capable and abled to transition into the… [more]
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Nothing. That's it...Just...Nothing
I'm feeling extremely cynical lately. I keep going around in circles, around and around like those little tea cup rides at the carnies that come to town from time to time. Getting nauseated on the round about of emotional distress I've felt for the last 7 or 8 months. I'm feeling very last in every one's life lately. I'm tired of being emotionally tired, it tires me physically. I'm tired of feeling worthless, I'm tired of everything. I'm tired of the feeling of betrayal, the lies that were told haunting me in my dreams. I'm tired of asking for what was rightfully mine as a wife and never getting it. I'm tired of the reminders that what was rightfully mine as a wife was given to someone else.… [more]
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Today is a better day...
...mostly. There are the little things that make it easier. The "can I do that for you" and the fact that indeed he has said he is sorry and remorseful. Remorseful is good, remorseful is different from feeling guilt.Guilt doesn't care for the person or people it hurts. It only cares for the fact of getting caught hurting those people or that person. Remorse shows an inclination to not committ to the act that hurt people or a person. Remorse can have physical repercussions too, much like depression does.It can cause body aches, headaches, heart aches. It is something he will live with in the back of his mind for the rest of his natural life. I'm good with that (as selfish as that may seem). T… [more]
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Our sorrows and wounds are healed only when we touch them with compassion. -- Buddha
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