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Female , 22-25
Feeling calm
I'm up to nothing.

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Local Time September 20th, 5:13 AM

I Am Bipolar And I Hate It

I was hypo manic for a few days so now I'm crashing and burning again. I'm really tired of these moods swings. I don't want to be depressed again. It's like in Cuba when you see... [more]
NotApplicable has shared 13 Mature Experiences
  • I Am Allergic to Marijuana

    I Might just be super sensitive to Weed Alright first time I smoked pot. It was a couple of inhales from a home made pipe. I got super high, scary high. I thought the devil was after me. I remained high for almost nine hours from just two n… [more]
  • I Am Pro Choice

    Why I Want To Kill My Unborn Babies Maybe it's murder but sometimes people or a fetus are better off dead. I've never had an abortion. I see it like pulling the plug on someone that's suffering. The problem with murder is that adults kn… [more]
  • I Am Alway Peeing

    Im Always Peeing i constantly have to take trips to the bathroom. I drink normal amount of water each day. I think I just have a small bladder. My friends in the past have made fun of my peeing. I've peed in my … [more]
  • I Am Against Antidepressants

    I Want To Quit Seroquel And Booze I'm still on seroquel. I asked My psychiatrist if I should ween off of it. He said to keep taking it because I'm stable now. I'm tired of being drowsy sometimes. I only have bipolar II. I know some pe… [more]
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    My Boyfriend Has Agoraphobia
    Both my boyfriend and I have agoraphobia. But he has panic attacks. I have never had them.Sometimes when i get really nervous, when I think about past experiences I get a bit dizzy and dissociate or I start yelling, "I'm going to die."Anyways, my boyfriend has a fear of crowds and cannot handle social events like weddings, parties, funerals, whatever. He just gets anxious and nervous. He says hi to everyone and sits in a corner during my family events.I have a crazy, loud family. I don't know what to do. We have a lot in common. It's just this that makes me wonder if being with him is worth it. I can't just abandon my family and I want him to be comfortable enough to deal with my family like… [more]
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    Keloid from hell
    I have a keloid on my shoulder. It itches like crazy. I'm getting cortisone injections for it. The injections hurt a lot and then it itches more and is sore for a day. It eventually goes back to its original itchiness. I can't wear certain things because it'll make it itch more. Bra straps dig into it. Sometimes I just don't wear bras or I'll wear a strapless one. It's too cold to go out in a tube top, plus I don't want the extra attention from people saying, "hey that's kinda shaped like a..." Goddam it I know what it's shaped like. This keloid is relentless. I know how this works. It'll get better in about two or three years.In the mean time. I put ointment on it to keep it from getting dr… [more]
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    car accident
    I got in a car accident. I already had some anxiety about driving. I was injured nothing to severe. My clavicle bone keeps making a clicking sound. my road burn is now blistering. All wonderful news. I don't have a job and can't get one now. Anyways I don't remember the accident. I remember the ambulance ride. That's about it.… [more]
  • Work Confessions

    care taker
    Why do i feel so weird? I am not good at emotions. I don't know what I am feeling right now. Starting to see weird shadow crap in my peripheral vision. hope I'm not losing my mind.I also have not been sleeping right. This week i've been watching an elderly woman. She has mild dementia and is recovering from hip surgery. She groans all night and there's nothing I can do to help her. I give her some pain meds but am not allowed to give her too much so she'll sleep for an hour or so. Then she'll start yell again. I'm a light sleeper so this has been unpleasant.I am living here temporarily so I'm a bit isolated which is good and bad. Good because I don't have to talk to anyone if I don't want to… [more]