NotFarFromReality

Its the only thing I'm scared of, the thunderous applause and striking beauty of the heavens. its gentle yet fierce crescendo sends chills down my back, breathtakingly beautiful but at the same time frightening just like all the great things in this universe. Sitting on the soft greens and browns of the Earth, the strong arms of trees surrounding you. It's calm, but you know it wont last. the winds start blowing and suddenly a sharp gust of cold wind hits you,. its like a million knives are being stabbed into your body, yet you don't move. The fear of what could happen petrifies you on the spot. you see it coming, you shakily get up to face it, your deepest fear. The wind whipping your hair,… [more]

sometimes i feel awkward with even the person i love the most. it scares me how awkward (socially) i can be.  Sometimes I'll be talking to her and i ask a question and she will be clueless about what im talking about, and while i know i should explain i start feeling awkward and foolish. then she'll respond  with something like "ok then?" or "uhh, ok?" and that makes me feel even more awkward. i just wish it wasnt like that >_< i mean after all im supposed to be comfortable around her. she is my gf after all:/ and sometimes ill even try to act kinda careless and a bit less smart sounding (i use lots of complicated language) its just all a big awkward mess i wish i could get rid of. this also… [more]

Just maybe I'm not what she wantsI'm the friend she adores but doesn't lovemaybe She doesn't think we can ever be more.Am I really the person she wants to be with?The person that's there always unconditionally?That's what i want her to believe i am,the love of her lifethe one she cant live without,forever in her arms,but i know that cant never be...Just maybe I'm not what she wantsI'm the friend she adores but doesn't lovemaybe She doesn't think we can ever be more.but......Just maybe I'm completely wrong and she does want meI'm the girl she loves and adoresmaybe she cant live without meI really am  the person she wants to be withThe person that's there always unconditionallythe one she know… [more]