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I Am In Love With My Teacher

In Love With My Teacher I know that almost everything im going to say will sound very childish and thoughtless. But im so in love with my English teacher. The facts are that I am twenty years old, he is fiftyfive... [more]
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  • I Have An Eating Disorder

    The Stuffed Feeling After Eating Makes Me Panic And Sad So I overdosed laxatives twice in my life. The last time was the day before yesterday, because I feld frightened I took twelve pills instead of one - three I collapsed, I could not s… [more]
  • I Have An Eating Disorder

    "I don't get Anorexics, It's So Ridiculous!!" I'm 21 years old now. The older I get, the clearer I see my family for what they are. Sometimes I wonder why I haven't told my mother about my ED, but suddenly it hit me. It's like this: M… [more]
  • I Am Battling An Eating Disorder

    My Letter To Ednos EDNOS, I love you so much, I know I can count on you, You'll never leave me, You are my friend in difficult times Make me feel thin, I want you to make me feel th… [more]
  • I Have An Eating Disorder

    I Got This Bright Idea This Morning So I woke up this morning at eleven thirty and the first few things that crossed my mind were: "What am I going to eat today? Where will I eat today? Why should I eat today??? How much am I going to e… [more]
  • Health Confessions

    I am using Anorexia to
    To  hide; From shynessFearRelationship issuesLow-self esteemThe numb out the disappointment that I feelFearFearLoneliness I use Anorexia to Cope with stressTo deal with changeTo help me feel specialThinness brings confidence, attention, a self esteemBeing thin is the answer to all my wishesI doIt's my confession… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    I went to school drunk
    I  don't know how to feel anymore.So I get drunk during the day. I went to school drunk a week ago for the first timeNobody knew… [more]
  • Health Confessions

    My body can't, anymore
    While I was downtown, i got this clever idea.Lets buy myself some cheese sandwiches at the supermarket I bought two and it tasted good, I ate them while cycling home.Halfway I noticed that my undigested food was searching their way back up.Ever since EDNOS I'm used to acute vomiting, but I can't get used to vomiting acutely in publicEventhough, I was glad I was rid of it because I felt pressure on my chestWhen I eventually got home I threw up so badly that I was totally dizzy , my eyemakup was running down my face, my throat was dry, my eyes were so dry to the point that they were hurting me so bad.I went to take  a shower and after that I slept for 3 hours and it felt so much better.But it … [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    My heart and mind are never on the same page
    It's so confusing.I feel truly miserable for so many yearsDepression and EDNOS kicked in tooI don't have a purpose in life anymore because of that.EDNOS controls me and tells me im too fat and ugly to finish school, but I do want to finish school but the harder I try the harder EDNOS slaps me in the face.It feels wrong when I don't eat but when I don't, my common sense tells me I'm doing something abnormalThe lost feeling is more than terrible… [more]