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"I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman."
Anais Nin

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I Live In a Sexless Marriage

The Cost Of A Sexless Marriage I have spent much time reading the stories on this thread, and I have been led to this conclusion: When one partner withholds sex, it costs the emotional intimacy of a relationship as well. [more]
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  • I Live In a Sexless Marriage

    I Have Now Become The Refuser.... When he hurt me so badly last week by refusing me once again (yes, that story is on EP somewhere), I told myself that our physical relationship was over. He did not know that at that moment I became … [more]
  • I Live In a Sexless Marriage

    You Always Say You Hate To See Me Hurt, And You Hate To See Me Cry. So All Those Times That You Hurt Me, Did You Close Your Eyes? -- Unknown As I contemplate the things that have happened over the last two weeks, I am left with the hurt that accompanies rejection. I do not believe I could be cut any deeper than I was last week by someone … [more]
  • I Love Quotes

    “Never Make Someone A Priority When All You Are To Them Is An Option.” Maya Angelou A few weeks ago, someone had this on his profile and it has been haunting me ever since. It makes my heart hurt whenever I think about it. I don't want to be an option. … [more]
  • I Live In a Sexless Marriage

    I Finally Shared My Marriage Troubles With Mom..... I finally sat down yesterday and spoke with my mother about my marital situation. I confessed to her that there are issues within my marriage that we may not get past. I had been putting this off fo… [more]
  • Friends Confessions

    Not a confession...Not a question.....
    But a hug to all my East Coast friends.  Be well and stay safe!  xoxo!… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    Today the tears....
    ...are just sitting behind my eyes.  Nothing bad happened.  Nothing good happened.  It was just today.  Today was yesterday, and it is tomorrow.  Caught in limbo and no one coming to rescue me.  I can't seem to find myself.   I reach down to look, to pull something from my inner core that tells me I exist, but I find nothing.  Please, tell me once again that  I am strong.  I have forgotten. … [more]
  • Love Confessions

    Honesty...
    Sometimes I feel as though being completely truthful is against the rules. … [more]
  • Love Confessions

    I agreed....
    ...to hold off on a separation until after we tried couple's counseling with a new therapist.  We can't get in until January.  Now I am feeling grumpy, mopey, frustrated, and sad.  I think I have my sign.....… [more]
  • An update....

    Posted on: June 16th, 2013 at 10:28PM

    June 16, 2013 It has only been a few days since my last post, but I wanted to give a quick update.  I am fine.  At least for now.  It will be followed...watched closely....but I have faith that I will be okay.   What I have been thinking about since that fateful day (dramatic, huh? laughing at myself) is the fact that suddenly everything that concerned me about my marriage, friendships, career, and life didn't seem to matter for a moment.  We cancelled our couple's session because this other 'thing' was more important.  And, as I began walking through the world of the unknown, I decided that I needed to live my life differently, so I made three resolutions.  I am going to do something each d… [more]

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  • And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. Anais Nin

    Posted on: July 2nd, 2012 at 1:22PM

    July 2, 2012 So, this is it.  It is time to allow myself to blossom.... What faces me as I stop fighting this transformation?  I do not know, but I can no longer fear it.   I will use this space to document my journey.  A journey that will by no means be as swift as the opening of a bud.   I do hope this odyssey finds as much pleasure as sadness, for in times of letting go, one can become overwhelmed with grief of what once was and what could have been.   As I turn my face toward the sun, I take a deep breath inhaling the hope ahead of me, and I move forward.  Here's to the blossoming of me.... ~ohgal~… [more]

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  • There comes a time...

    Posted on: June 12th, 2013 at 7:57PM

    June 12, 2013 When life as we know it changes.  Sometimes it is a slow progression, and other times, it hits you in the face.  Well, life smacked me a good one.  Funny, how in all my plans and schemes, this never really played a role.  I am talking about the phone call from the doctor.  "Your tests came back suspicious."  The disbelief turns to fear turns to shock turns to regret turns to... "How am I going to tell my children? Do I have the strength to say goodbye?" and while out with my daughter today, "Why am I shopping pretending everything is normal? I won't need these items in a couple of months...."  (My very first shopping trip completed empty-handed. lol)  So, it has only been two d… [more]

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