ohgal01 41-45, F
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I Have Now Become The Refuser....When he hurt me so badly last week by refusing me once again (yes, that story is on EP somewhere), I told myself that our physical relationship was over. He did not know that at that moment I became … [more]
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I Finally Shared My Marriage Troubles With Mom.....I finally sat down yesterday and spoke with my mother about my marital situation. I confessed to her that there are issues within my marriage that we may not get past. I had been putting this off fo… [more]
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You Always Say You Hate To See Me Hurt, And You Hate To See Me Cry. So All Those Times That You Hurt Me, Did You Close Your Eyes? -- UnknownAs I contemplate the things that have happened over the last two weeks, I am left with the hurt that accompanies rejection. I do not believe I could be cut any deeper than I was last week by someone … [more]
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Time For An Exit Plan....Funny; I didn't really believe it would ever come to this. Fooling myself? Probably. I told him, over drinks at my favorite restaurant Friday evening, that I wanted to be in love with… [more]
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Not a confession...Not a question.....But a hug to all my East Coast friends. Be well and stay safe! xoxo!… [more]
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Today the tears.......are just sitting behind my eyes. Nothing bad happened. Nothing good happened. It was just today. Today was yesterday, and it is tomorrow. Caught in limbo and no one coming to rescue me. I can't seem to find myself. I reach down to look, to pull something from my inner core that tells me I exist, but I find nothing. Please, tell me once again that I am strong. I have forgotten. … [more]
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I agreed.......to hold off on a separation until after we tried couple's counseling with a new therapist. We can't get in until January. Now I am feeling grumpy, mopey, frustrated, and sad. I think I have my sign.....… [more]
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You know.....I am not really that bothered by the fact that we were unable to meet last night. In the moment, yes, I was very disappointed. But in the light of the morning, I am wondering if you saved me from something.… [more]
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And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. Anais Nin
July 2, 2012 So, this is it. It is time to allow myself to blossom.... What faces me as I stop fighting this transformation? I do not know, but I can no longer fear it. I will use this space to document my journey. A journey that will by no means be as swift as the opening of a bud. I do hope this odyssey finds as much pleasure as sadness, for in times of letting go, one can become overwhelmed with grief of what once was and what could have been. As I turn my face toward the sun, I take a deep breath inhaling the hope ahead of me, and I move forward. Here's to the blossoming of me.... ~a~… [more]
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About Me
"I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who… See All +
Location
Toledo, Ohio (OH), United States (USA)
Member
Since Jun 06, 2012
Quote
See my description of me... It wouldn't fit here.
Horoscope
Libra
Vices
The written word
Music
Stuck in the 80s
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- ohgal01 and Totherescue became friends 3 days ago
- ohgal01 commented on "If You Could See Through My Eyes", a story by amodelcitizen about how "I Think You Are Beautiful" 6 days ago
- ohgal01 answered the question "How can I get better at sex for him without so much trial and error that we stop finding it fun?" a while ago
- ohgal01 answered the question "Who's up waay before they should be!?" a while ago
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