ooseven 36-40, F

I am starting to like EP and feel slightly connected to some of you here. I wonder if this is going to permanently modulate my brain and behavior to feel connected to people I have never met and probably never will. That I can have the feeling of connection yet able to turn you "on" or "off" as I wish unlike my real world friends. hah, how about that?… [more]

The list starts from my mom, a couple of my childhood friends, a couple guys I dated, and recently a close friend who just wished me "Good luck in 2012!", whatever that means...In a way, I think they love me.  They usually hold strong opinions about a lot of things, passionate about certain subjects and topics and could be very charming and nice, IF, I go along and happen to share the same idea or interests.  Otherwise, when opinions differ, they flip a switch and attack yours, spend endless hours trying to convince and convert you to conform to their opinions, practice "tough love" to show you the right way and to educate you.During those times I feel really sad because I really love these … [more]

Have been really disappointed lately by a guy who inject a lot of hope in me by telling me lofty promises, sweet words and yet dropped me and our relationship at the first glance of potential issues and did not show any willingness or capabilities to work towards a promising future. I seek refuge in friends, religion, psychology(self-help books) and still a little off balanced from my usual cheery, bright self. Finally today I came across a website and bought 5 pairs of shoes and it calms me down and got me exited a little. religion vs. shoes, guess I am that shallow :) … [more]