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Female , 41-45
Feeling lonely
To the soul's desires, The body listens. What the flesh requires, Keeps the heart imprisoned

just trying to stay one step ahead of complete chaos

Last Seen 2 days ago
Member Since Aug 10, 2012
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  • a little Swiss
Vices Captain & coke
Politics
Horoscope Taurus
Special day 4-14
Books The Road, A Simple Plan,Sookie Stackhouse series
Music alternative,trance,pop,rock
Movies Green Mile,Shawshank Redemption,Parenthood
Local Time August 27th, 4:03 PM

I Want To Write Something From My Heart

The early morning sun is peaking in through the corner of my bedroom window, trying to wake me up. I turn over, putting my back to the oncoming brightness....I'm not ready to wake up. I don't want to... [more]
Oso41412 has shared 35 Mature Experiences
  • I Believe In Soul Mates

    You Have My Heart But you also have my breath caught in my lungs. Each bone in my spine, each bone in my body. Every muscle aches and surges with you. You have so much more than my heart. You have everything it keeps a… [more]
  • I Am The Other Woman

    What Remains Unspoken It's been 10 months now since we've reconnected. Many things have happened in those 10 months, including his wife finding out. Even though we are over a thousand miles apart we have managed to still c… [more]
  • I Am a Victim of Emotional Abuse

    Walking On Eggshells It's a vicious cycle. Never ending, always on the verge. Trying to make things work, only to be told hateful things. Why am I here? How can you say those things to me? Apologies turn into empty promis… [more]
  • I Loved Someone That Didn't Love Me

    Done It's over. I've said goodbye. My heart has been broken and it needs to start recovering now. But, I just want to know, I need to know....when will this horrible aching go away? I feel it every d… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    What If?
    What if the was an alternate universe? A place where we could escape our realities and run away from the illusions that we've created? Would you join me there?… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    Just Once
    I once had someone special tell me that he would love to be able to draw me a hot bath, have me get in and then that he would love to take his time and wash my hair. He went into great detail how he wanted to make sure the temperature of the water was perfectly warm and how he wanted to just cover my hair in suds, taking his time to carefully enjoy lathering up my hair, washing it and rinsing it off until he was ready to towel dry it....He wanted me to be able to completely relax and enjoy myself.....he made the whole experience sound so loving and passionate... We never got the chance to do this. I wish we had, but sadly I know this will never be. It's just something I wish I could've e… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    You
    Every time I'm with him I think of you. Every time he touches me I wish it was you. Everyday it's getting harder and harder to hide these feelings.… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    Eventually
    I know I'm avoiding the inevitable.... Eventually I will let it out. I will let my emotions pour from me. I will let this hurt and anger and confusion erupt from me. Maybe I will even surprise myself and confront you....I don't know. But I will only do this when I'm ready, when I feel that it's safe too.....only when I know that I can handle it. As much as I wish I was, I'm still not ready yet. Until then I will just avoid it all, I don't have a choice yet....I'm not quite strong enough.… [more]