PenAngel 18-21, F

Nobody knows I cut myself, I haven't in over a month but the scars are there and no one knows that but me, and I won't tell anyone because I don't know why I do it, and if people found out they'd want to know why, or think that I'm doing it for attention, its just a release, bearable physical pain to block out unendurable mental pain. No one knows that though I used to see my Dad on regular basis (my parents are split up) I have absolutely no memory of what we did when I did spend weekends with him, but I remember him picking me up and dropping me home, just nothing in between, I do remember my reluctance to see him on 'his' weekends No one knows how much I contemplate death, not suicide rea… [more]