Transgender , 22-25

A Poet! Enough said!

Last Seen Apr 10, 2013
Member Since Jun 12, 2010
Favorite Quote I am brought to my destruction, for alas I’ve lost direction, within my heart I’m torn.
Vices Anorexia, Bulimia, Laxatives, Alcohol
Politics Very Liberal
Horoscope Sagittarius
Special day 11-26
Books Robert Louis Stevenson, Percy B. Shelley, John Keats,
Music Anuna,Clannad,Capercaillie,Enya,Solas,The Chieftains,Runrig,
Movies Prayers For Bobby
Local Time May 26th, 11:52 AM

I Love Getting Drunk

And I Only Drink Beer... I used to drink wine, coolers, anything with an alcoholic content but it ****** with my brain when beer only makes me high :) So I've stuck to that. I'm on my third tonight! The last one I have and I... [more]
PoisonJestersMask has shared 5 Mature Experiences
  • I Am a Sadist

    I Am Ready To Confess I have been uncomfortable with my Sadist desires, but I am the ideal Sadist when you come to think of it...I don't go around looking to make someone miserable but I cannot get high or aroused unle… [more]
  • I Remember My Past Lives

    I Can't Handle It.... I can't handle it anymore! From the moment I was born I knew there was something missing in my life, something different about me...and what was missing from my life was exactly what's the obvious MYS… [more]
  • I Am a Masochist

    Purge I can't be a "normal" person! I can't do it!!! I've tried again and again and failed! It just isn't in me...there is some demon voice inside me that pushes on and on for self-destruction. I have the n… [more]
  • I Have No Idea What to Do With My Life

    And Where??? And where am I going with this thing people call life??? The honest truth is I'm not sure...I have SO MANY issues with myself, Anorexia, low-self esteem, Bipolar (or probably) etc...just … [more]
  • Daughter's Love

    Posted on: June 12th, 2010 at 4:00PM

    Forever I have loved you and always I've adored. In all your faults and actions non have I abhored. Whenever you draw near me in kindness lovely dear and kiss my cheeks so tender-a love that's ne'er pretend. I silently surrender; your kiss my soul does mend. You are my friend and lover, a foe at times to fight and yet my love grows stronger as all the years take flight. We've grown old together, from the moment we met we've clung our arms around each other prepared for anything. You are my friend and lover, my soul mate sweet divine. God has made no other you're the one and you are mine. And time has ravaged both of us, you're as sick as I am frail. We've lived obliged to one another and o… [more]


  • Fasting Song

    Posted on: June 13th, 2010 at 7:13AM

    When one is fasting one feels pure within. A sweet sublte redemption releasing one from sin. When one is fasting clarity begins, and a soul begins to see there is no beginning, there is NO end. When one is fasting, you belong to Him; the Master who created you who knows all deep within. When one is fasting, this world melts away and understanding claims you that this earth will fade away. When one is fasting one seeks God to forgive, the sins we're not aware of and yet did! When one is fasting life becomes whole, spiritual need awakens and heaven becomes your goal.… [more]


  • Ode To GrandFather

    Posted on: June 13th, 2010 at 7:14AM

    And have you drifted into the midst of time? Do I have to move heaven and earth to find you; if so then I'll try. Am I the only remnants of you, this reflection lost in a maze; this body, soul and spirit in which I often gaze. The form you left behind, this small girl wrapped in sin; you've spoke to me in visions...this life shall never end. Not until I've found you and my soul can rest! Your suffering continues from heavens great abyss, as you watch your youngest Grandchild self-destruct in the way you did. Can any of us escape it? The ties of blood which bind; I only know your memory shall haunt me until I die? Have all forgotten you existed, when I'm judged or shoved aside...they ne'er… [more]


  • Wasn't There

    Posted on: June 13th, 2010 at 7:16AM

    If only I was unwanted, my pain could have been spared. It'd only take an hour or so, no one would know nor care. If I were non-existant, my agony would be spared. The endless days of torment, those moments full of terror. Sometimes I would be better off if alas I wasn't here! How can I undo the damage and correct this fine mistake? Should I take my life and reach too soon heavens golden gate? How can I blame my Mother? For if she had known the pain this world would inflict upon her one and only babe; she see nothing would be gained. If only I was unwanted, my pain could have been spared. The selfish act of Motherhood is what brought me here. … [more]