Female , 18-21

I am a sophomore in collage and want more than anything to publish my writing for a living. I'm 19 going on 60( that's how old I really feel). I'm more of a loner and extreamly introverted around people but would give anything to find the man of my dreams. I'm not sterotypically pretty, I'm pale, overweight, and have scars throuhout my body. I'm bipolar and battle depression as well thanks to my good for nothing father and I am haunted by my past thanks to the abuse I endured from him, as much as I want to forget. <br /><br /><br />
I enjoy reading, writing, discussing current events and debating, walks in the woods, music, my cat and two dogs, and going driving to clear my head.

Last Seen Feb 22, 2012
Member Since Dec 16, 2009
Favorite Quote "Loving yourself is the hardest, but is the most rewarding" -me
  • a little French-Canadian
  • and a little Italian
  • and a little German
Politics Moderate
Horoscope Aries
Special day 4-12
Books too many to count but Pride and Prejudice, Twilight, and Harry Potter are a few
Music everything except bluegrass
Movies The Lion King, Kate and Leopold, X-men, The Phantom of The Opera, Harry Potter series just to nam a few
Local Time May 23rd, 9:32 AM

I Would Give Anything For My Father's Approval

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  • Other Confessions

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