Male , 18-21
Feeling hopeful
Okay I'm finally back on this site. hope everyone is doing alright.

I'm Jacob or Jake, and I'm a gay student thats currently going though chemotherapy. I'm here for anyone that needs someone to talk to and needs a laugh.

Last Seen Apr 29
Member Since May 23, 2011
Favorite Quote
  • a little American Indian
  • and a little European
  • and a little African American
Horoscope Leo
Special day
Books the complete works of William Shakespeare
Music japanese, rock, metal, pop rock
Movies Red
Local Time May 22nd, 8:25 AM

I Like It When It Rains

At Peace  I've always become calmer when it rain. The sound of water hitting the house and the trees around us relax me. I become at peace with everything around me when it rains and everything seems possible... [more]
randamukyubi has shared 38 Mature Experiences
  • I Remember My First Day Of High School

    First Day  My first day of school was very...well i guess interesting. I hurried my *** to my science class in the morning and found a set in the back and just waited there for a good 15 minutes before the bel… [more]
  • I Got Caught Naked

    Wouldn't Really Call It Getting Caught  I dont lock my door, never really wanted to, this allows people to walk in whenever they please and I dont mind it. Like my sister who runs into my room to get a skirt or shirt or her bra that she l… [more]
  • I Love Being Held

    In His Arms  I am safe. I dont worry about the things that are yet to come or the things from the past. I just listen to the sound of his heart beat and it calms my stormy mind. There is no were else I rather be… [more]
  • I Believe People Come Into Your Life For a Reason

    They Come And Go But Each One Has A Huge Impact On My Life  People come and go in my life so quickly but they always change me in some way. From my ex who left me for someone much older and changed me to grow a thicker skin to my oniisan who is always helpin… [more]
  • Family Confessions

    I am terrified.
    My mom is getting me from the mental hospital tomorrow morning to take me to my dorms and get me food. I havent seen her since she came to visit me in the hospital...almost a month ago....I am scared of how she will react. … [more]
  • Other Confessions

    I am at the point whenever I want to tell someone about something that is bothering me or someone that is hurting me so much I cant...I feel like I am bothering and I have been getting snapped at for things so often lately I am scared to say anything. And writing this on here is making me paranoid cause I don't want people to think I am looking for attention or be a bother...I don't know what to do...… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    Those words really do hurt but you'll never know
    I hide all the pain that comes from the words that my father and grandfather say about me being gay and loving guys. I hide the pain because they aren't worth my tears and arent worth the time and energy for me to explain myself. But as I lie here in this hospital bed alone, I can't help but cry as I remember those words but not only cause they are true but because I do not want to change and I wont ever change for them because I'm happy as I as and that means I will have to let go of my father and grandfather. … [more]
  • Love Confessions

    I've Never Been Happier
    I'm in love!!!!!! with my prince!!!!!! and I'm a guy as well but I dont care cause he makes me feel happier then anyone else in the world could. And just a few minutes of talking to him makes all the bad things that have happened to me go away. I love him and thats not going to change for a long time and if I'm lucky it will never change.… [more]
  • There is this guy

    Posted on: July 17th, 2011 at 7:37PM

     He's funny and wierd with his collection of sex toys and the strange thoughts that come from his head. He's kind and gentle while part of him is cold/sadistic or girly or childish but all of those things, all of those personalities are what I love about him. He's always been there for me, listening to my problems and trying to help even when I'm a huge pain in the ***. He's patient and forgiving. He's gone through hell and is pretty much still there yet takes time to deal with me and his boyfriend. He's someone I look up to and someone I run too when things get ******. He's someone I love with all my heart and being and who I'll always be there for. Some who I'm greatful for even having the… [more]