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I Wish Someone Was There To Catch Me When I Fall

Things Won't Get Better?  I have been sad for 8 years, so since I was 10, going on 9 since I'll be 19 soon. I have very low self-esteem and I hate myself with all the hate in the world. Why? Because I feel like I... [more]
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  • And I'm trying.

    Posted on: June 10th, 2010 at 8:56AM

    I don't get my parents, I know I'm not the smartest; most intelligent person, but I'm trying. They don't get it... And they always think I'm lying when I'm telling the truth but when I do lie they believe me? I went out with an old friend I haven't hung out with since 10th grade* had to change highschools-long story* Anyway I'll be 19 in a couple weeks, so it's been about 3 or 4 years since I've seen him. We hung out for about 8 hours, 2 of which we were lost. But I had fun. Anyway I was suppose to call my parents if I was going anywhere else and I did forget, seriously I did, and now it's like I'm some evil manipulative ****. I haven't seen him in 3 or 4 years and might not see him again … [more]

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  • And I'm trying.

    Posted on: June 10th, 2010 at 9:22AM

    I don't get my parents, I know I'm not the smartest; most intelligent person, but I'm trying. They don't get it... And they always think I'm lying when I'm telling the truth but when I do lie they believe me? I went out with an old friend I haven't hung out with since 10th grade* had to change highschools-long story* Anyway I'll be 19 in a couple weeks, so it's been about 3 or 4 years since I've seen him. We hung out for about 8 hours, 2 of which we were lost. But I had fun. Anyway I was suppose to call my parents if I was going anywhere else and I did forget, seriously I did, and now it's like I'm some evil manipulative ****. I haven't seen him in 3 or 4 years and might not see him again … [more]

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  • GAH

    Posted on: February 7th, 2012 at 6:34PM

    Okay..so I've said this repeatedly, but some know me and my half brother don't get along. He has been pushing it the last few days. Yesterday was it. He keeps calling me lazy. The other day my mom was finally about to kick him and his fiance out. But she caved.. My mom wants him and her to do some things around the house, which in my opinion is fair since they have no job and arent in school. They were talking about me later that day, like what does she do? like **** you. He goes off or taking the trash out. WTF. I cant tell you how many times I had too, or had to finish because he half *****. He always calls me lazy and a loser, but at least im in school full time and before my grandma move… [more]

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  • Bored with life & lonely..

    Posted on: February 6th, 2011 at 1:36AM

    Everyday I wake up I feel tired and depressed and go to bed the same way, like I know it will be the same thing today and tomorrow. I guess I want something new, or maybe I expect too much. I for some reason have developed social anxiety and think it's gotten worse because I dread going out to public places and especially college classes-that mixed in with my low selfestem. Like I said before, I'm always tired, my rooms a mess, my homework is procrastinated daily, I return calls weeks later, and I sometimes sleep most of the day.I also don't have as many friends as I use to, so it feels like I have no one to talk to. I did find a new friend and we became best friends, but then  today she sen… [more]

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