rhea413 22-25, F

I have had this feeling long time back.. and i hate it. I fall for every tom, **** and harry who shows a little love for me and decide thats it for me..because of this i have committed several mistakes being in wrong relationships because i had million guys coming after me and showing me love and romance. Later I realized they all went on my looks and physical assets or my few characteristic traits( very outgoing and fun loving). now i feel used .. and that i am love addicted ninny.. i got married and felt my H was final perfect and best ( still cant figure out how my minor reasons became the best that day) for me.. today i realize if i had thought for sometime before falling for anyon… [more]

I have a dirty confession to make that started when my marriage started crashing.. before I had too when I realized I do not have a real boyfriend.. I might sound kiddish but its a naked truth.. I hate to see others in a happy loving relationship. I hate to see people kissing each other or getting intimate.. I feel so damn jealous. I am happy for them and have no offense for them in anyways, but why couldnt i have them?? so i hate it but not literally hate it like that.. i love watching intimate romantic movies and watch those scenes with my eyes bulged out.. but now , i hate watching that also.. i feel jealous and hurt.. and keep questioning myself that what less I have in not be… [more]