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Female , 56-60

I am the result of my past but not limited to it. I have a vision of being happy and achieving it. I have been told I am worthless and a waste, but I do not believe it, I know better. This life will have hills and valleys, and I will glean all the good I can out of it , and be better each day for it.

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Member Since Mar 18, 2012
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  • a little Scottish
Vices Kombucha, Music
Politics Liberal
Horoscope Libra
Special day 9-25
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rowenbumble has shared 2 Mature Experiences
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  • I Am a Spiritual Being Having a Human Experience

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  • My Life

    Posted on: May 14th, 2012 at 9:42AM

    Another Mother's Day has come and gone...the 32nd one from my mother dying 3 days before I was to celebrate my first one as a mother....Kind of put the brakes on it being a happy day for me for a long time. Until my own children told me I wasn't allowing them to make my day happy..That was never my intent, so I try to enjoy it for them...but the dark scar still lays deep. I wished so many times I would have had a mother's advise or input...even a place to go to think. But life took that safe harbor away just as I was starting out . I was on my own...trying to learn and do on the fly...not a good way to deal with life. I had a father that threw me away when I was 4...the only girl out of 4 ki… [more]

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  • The Secret

    Posted on: January 28th, 2013 at 4:47PM

    To act on impulse, not look back...leading you into familiar territory, yet still unknown. A new found connection, one to just enjoy, but if others knew, oh what hell there would be to pay on both sides. A secret no one would have imagined, or many would want yet there it is....literally lying in wait.… [more]

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  • The Past Fades

    Posted on: April 10th, 2014 at 11:43PM

    I have lived a fairly long life, and have made many, many mistakes. But where I am now is a place I really never saw myself being, but I love it. I had to let someone have most of what we had achieved, that was of a monetary value,...gave most all of it to him so I could leave. I have possesions that are of sentimental worth, but the house, business, cars, furniture, etc...all were given to him & his mother.  Decades were spent by both of us, trying to find some sort of "good" life.  I don't think either one of us was really happy, at least I know I wasn't. I tried though, to tell myself it was good, tried to really believe it, but it wasn't real. That's ok though now. I don't remember much … [more]

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  • One Year

    Posted on: August 21st, 2013 at 11:02AM

    It has been one year today. A long, terribly lonely year without my brother. I miss him more than I could express in any words known. He is gone. Sometimes I think that is wrong. He could never be gone, not Storm, never Storm. He lived through almost drowning in Bear Creek in a flash flood. He lived through some of the worst battles of Viet Nam. He lived through being shot at as a Mohave Sheriff....and ended up shooting the shooter.He was the one constant in my life. He had always been there. ALWAYS. Things were going to be ok somehow, because he was always there to tell me that. He was never Not my brother. Even when we were mad at each other, we talked. He checked in on me, wondered about … [more]

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