sadmomof2 26-30, F

so things have gotten a little bit better for me this past week, I have made an appointment to see a surgeon about my rectocele/cystocele/pevic organ prolapse, I made an appointment to see a psychiatrist, It will soon be my birthday, we got a new couch....and my orthopedic surgeon gave me a generous supply of vicodin to last until my appointment to see the pain management doctor, for some reason, the vicodin seems to aways reduce my depression and increase my energy and positive thoughts, which is what I needed right about now...so, I am glad to be feeling a bit better, now to face the daunting task of cleaning up my disorganized house while my husband is gone and the kids are in bed so nobo… [more]

I love storms, and would love to see a tornado...but not too close...and don't want to see anybody hurt… [more]

What damage have I done to my body from years of stupidity and drug use?… [more]

finally, I got on with a good pain management doctor...one who will try things besides just massive doses of opiates to control my pain...don't get me wrong I love my pain meds, but I dont want to increase my dosage or get addicted...I wanted other ways to help my pain, and he is putting me in physical therapy and giving me some cortisone injections as well as my opiates and also some new nsaids to try. My future seems brighter and less painful already! I now have hope that I will be better able to keep up with my two amazing little boys! now, If I can get my depression/other issues out of the way, and have my surgery for my POP, I will be doing pretty damn good… [more]