scarletdreamer 22-25, F

As could be expected, I do miss you. I can't keep beating myself up that I do because I wish that I don't. … [more]

Mourning the ideal is what gets people into trouble. When someone has lost something, the only aspects they tend to replay over and over in their heads are the positive, potentially idealistic traits. They fail to take into consideration that what they have lost was possibly less than ideal. They then distort their reality to an illusioned, glorified version of itself; and it is this illusion that pulls people back. It makes them mourn for something that they never, in actuality, really had. Makes them forget what was wrong; what was less than ideal. The negative feelings, the heartbreaking moments, are all washed away once they have lost what they can no longer have. Some people think that … [more]

To truly love someone is to not find them perfect, flawless and without faults; it is to love a person and their flaws. No one person is perfect, and to think so, would mean you are ignorant and blind to the core of that person, and therefore invalidating your love. To think so would mean you are not grounded in actuality, and who wants to be loved by someone who is at contrast with reality. … [more]

I want my skin to clear upI want to lose 15-20 poundsI want to be in a relationship and be lovedI want my hair to growI want to get admitted to my ideal program.....so many wants. … [more]