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Transgender , 26-30
Feeling thoughtful
MA USA
unsure

Last Seen 12 hrs ago
Member Since Jan 16, 2008
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Heritage
  • a little Irish
  • and a little American
  • and a little French
Vices music, the internet, fluff, nature
Politics Liberal
Horoscope Cancer
Special day
Books Angela's Ashes, Halfway home my life til now, Paddy Whacked, Morgan Llywelyn books, LOTR, The Hobbit
Music pretty well anything but hardcore rap or SKA,
Movies Boondock Saints, Boys don't cry, the manchurian candidate, RENT, Star Wars, Star Trek, The Bob Hope/Bing Crosby
Local Time December 21st, 11:39 AM

I Want to Answer a 100 Questions to Pass the Time

That's Half An Hour I'll Never Get Back Haha. 1. What is your name? Shaun 2. How old are you? 21 (w00t) 3. Are you sure? last time I checked 4. What is your earliest memory? [more]
shaun0h has shared 8 Mature Experiences
  • I Am Insecure

    Self-defeatist I can't seem to shake the feeling that everyone is watching everything I do, and thinking to themselves, god what a loser everything he does is WRONG. I think that too most of the time--how can I poss… [more]
  • I Am So Depressed and Lonely I Am Afraid I Will Commit Suicide

    Desperation i have friends who care and listen, but i still feel like there's nobody. I try so hard not to get down enough to be suicidal but it often seems I end up there. I've tried only a couple of times, none… [more]
  • I Have Pcos

    PCOS, Bah I was diagnosed when I was 16, although I've shown symptoms since I was 7 or 8, I'm not pursuing medical treatment because I'm a pre-everything FtM trans-man so I don't want to do anything that would … [more]
  • I Watch Cartoons

    Old School 'toons I love old school toons, from the looney toons,flintstones and jetsons (among others) to 90s nick toons(Rocko's modern life, doug etc), and disney toons (darkwing duck, duck tales, tail spin, Chip n d… [more]
  • draft letter to my dad

    Posted on: January 21st, 2008 at 10:12PM

    Dear Father: You said we could talk about your moving to Florida, but I don't talk well, I write better so here it comes, all of it... First, on the subject of you "going to Florida for Harley school" I really don't care what you do because I'm at the point where I realize that I will not get a relationship with you. You think you're more important and better than everybody else so you can't "come down to our level" and form a relationship. I know your rebuttal is going to be the whole thing you said when we were on the way down to Rhode Island, well you know what--it's all a big elaborate lie or fabrication that you use in your head to rationalize leaving everything you've ever known… [more]

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  • *just being angry*

    Posted on: January 25th, 2008 at 10:51PM

    Right now I'm filled with intense rage, for no reason, it's bizarre...I'm red in the face I can feel my blood pressure rising, I just want to take it out on something...someone? (almost never) myself? (sometimes) the wall? (yeah usually) I don't understand why I get this way, it's hard for me to know when it's coming, just this intense sense of rage, i feel like the mofo-ing hulk, all green and freakishly huge, with this wicked rage and anger, except i'm not saving the girl or the world or whatever, I'm just mad. I need to find a better way to cope, this is getting ridiculous.My mood: extremely angry… [more]

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  • starting the blog

    Posted on: January 18th, 2008 at 9:13PM

    i'm popping my own EP blog cherry, not like anyone else could do it for me but whatever. I usually write in blogs religiously for a couple of days, stories, experiences, my ranting, poetry, pieces of my "manifesto" whatever I think folks might find interesting. I hope you enjoy the blog and if you do maybe you can encourage me to post more, maybe this one won't go down the tubes like many others have. that being said-- here's my thoughts on trans-ness for today, it's been on my mind incessantly today so I should write about it... How many people take it for granted that they're born into the body they belong to; that their very essence, their soul, belongs in the body they are born into. I… [more]

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