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Female , 22-25

I am a walking contradiction.

Last Seen May 26, 2013
Member Since Mar 27, 2011
Favorite Quote I have waaay too many
Heritage
  • a little Irish
  • and a little Scottish
  • and a little Welsh
  • and a little German
  • and a little American
Vices cigarettes, weed, alcohol, breaking shit, etc
Politics Anarchist
Horoscope Aquarius
Special day
Books Anything by Dean Koontz, Ellen Hopkins, Steven King, James Patterson, John Grisham, etc.
Music Mostly anything from the 50's -70's, I like some 80's music, some 90's. I love rap, r&b, metal, classic rock, reggae, dubstep, jazz, indie rock, classical, post-rock, experimental, progressive, etc
Movies Fear and loathing in Las Vegas, all the alien and predator movies, juice, poetic justice, hellraiser, Any movie by John Carpenter and George A Romero, etc
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I Had a Dream and Want to Know What It Means

I Keep Having Bad Dreams With My Ex In Them... What Does It Mean? I was with my ex for six years, we had a pretty dysfunctional relationship. He proposed to me in September, I said yes, and we were happy for about four months. I found out he had met another girl and... [more]
sillyginger has shared 10 Mature Experiences
  • I Am a Psychopath

    I'm Not Sure If I'm A Psychopath Or Just Have Psychopathic Tendencies I believe that psychopaths can feel emotions. I mostly feel anger (more like rage), depression and disgust. I rarely ever feel positive emotions... most of the time I'm just numb, indifferent to every… [more]
  • I Want to Start a New Life

    I'm Not Really Living.. I'm Just Here I hate my life. I'm 22 years old, I have no job, no car, I'm always broke. I don't even have my license, I almost died in a car accident when I was 16 and my boyfriend at the time did die. Ever since … [more]
  • I Was Molested As a Child

    I Hate Him I can't remember the exact age when it started, but I know I was still in elementary school. It was my uncle..my mother's sister married him so he was related by marriage. I know this sounds crazy but… [more]
  • I Am Bipolar

    I Can't Keep Living Life Like This... If You Can Even Call It "living" I was doing so good... I had a really bad depressive episode a few wks ago. I started drinking (I self medicate when I get like that).. I was drunk and hysterical. I couldn't stop crying.. all I could… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    I am my own worst enemy
    I hate feeling this way. I hate the person I am. Part of me hates my parents because I blame them for the problems I have. Growing up as a child and watching my parents fight constantly, my dad beat the **** out of my mom on almost a daily basis. One day when I was about 5 or 6 he slammed her on the ground and started choking her, I remember feeling so afraid and contemplating on grabbing a butcher knife and stabbing him because I thought he was going to choke my mother to death. I hate my uncle and wish he would have died with the first stroke he had, he molested me on and off for a few years when I was in elementary school. I also blame him for the mental problems I have. I'm angry at my … [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    hate it
    I'm tired of being sad. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of feeling empty inside. I'm tired of feeling worthless. I'm tired of feeling stuck. I'm tired of feeling crazy. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired of dreaming of a life I will never have. I'm tired of missing things. I'm tired of missing people. I'm tired of remembering. I'm tired of wishing I could start all over. I'm tired of not being able to just let go. I'm tired of faking it. I'm tired of being different. I'm tired of being angry. I'm tired of needing help. I'm tired of always wondering when I will finally be happy. Most of all, I'm just I'm tired of being tired… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    today is going to be a bad day
    today is my ex's birthday. first birthday in the past 4 years we won't be celebrating together. it's not even noon yet and i'm already crying my eyes out. i wish we could have worked out problems out. i wish that i never responded to him when he wrote me on facebook 3 weeks ago. i knew we could never work out in a relationship if we got back together yet i let him come over and we acted just like we were together again. i knew i was just torturing myself... … [more]
  • Love Confessions

    Nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling...
    It's been seven hours and fifteen days since you took your love away I go out every night and sleep all day since you took your love away since you've been gone I can do whatever I want I can see whomever I choose I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant but nothing I said nothing can take away these blues, 'cause nothing compares nothing compares to you It's been so lonely without you here like a bird without a song nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling tell me baby where did I go wrong? I could put my arms round every boy I see but they'd only remind me of you I went to the doctor guess what he told me guess what he told me he said girl you better try to have fun no matter w… [more]